Appreciation Suicide & Ascension 8 Tips To Get Back On Top

How to cope in uncertain times.  This is National Suicide Prevention month.

Many are feeling emotions which have been suppressed for a lifetime – that is overwhelming and it can seem like it will never end.  I know that sometimes, I feel emotions so deeply it’s a physical pain – usually in my heart.  I wanted to write a blog to let you know – YOU’RE NOT ALONE & THIS TOO SHALL PASS!

It seems that right now, so many people are feeling on the edge… Life can be a bit of a ride, especially sensitive folk who are feeling the downloads of light energy coming to the planet.

The statistics are shocking (click here for figures), but what astounds me is how many people – normal people, friends, acquaintances are coming out and admitting that they too considered suicide!

For some tips and info from another source click here, but below I share what worked for me.

What to do if you’re feeling suicidal…

1. Avoid alcohol and drugs.

2. Give yourself one more day, or one more week.. and speak to someone, share what’s going on, you’ll realise you’re not alone and everyone experiences these low times.  Sometimes places like facebook make you believe that everyone is having an outta this world kinda time ALL the time.  NO!  Most people go into their cave when they’re feeling awful (I know I do), so remember you’re not alone.

3. Keep anything harmful out of your way so it’s not easy to commit suicide on an impulse.

4. Exercise, even 30 mins of brisk walking will increase the heart rate, change the physiology and change the emotions.

5. Spend time in nature and be in the sunshine if possible.

6. Remember your dreams and visions… and know that the lower you get, the more power you have to create them…

7. SMILE…  this releases endorphins which are the chemicals which make us feel ‘happy’ – it also reduces stress levels.

8. BREATHE…  for info on the benefits of slow, deep conscious breathing and more tips on feeling great click here to read ‘Help! 4 Steps Back To The Light.

My Story

I know what it’s like to be in that desperate place.

I considered checking out when I was a kid, but St. Anthony appeared to me in a dream and told me ‘Everything is going to be alright’.  This totally blew my mind and eased my pain beyond words can describe.  He was my favourite Saint and I felt very, very blessed, loved and humbled to have had that divine guidance.  Again, as an adult, I got to a pretty low point in life.  I lost all faith in seeing how on earth I could get back ….  I was living out in the middle of the countryside, 15 mins drive (along a treacherous track) from the closest neighbours and the only thing that kept me alive, was the love for my foster doggy.  I knew that if I did check out, he would not survive.  When I thought about that, and connected with his beauty and doleful eyes, I knew, for us, I HAD to go on.  So – I know what it’s like, if that’s any consolation.

What got me out of that pit of despair?  Love.  Visioning, dreaming, knowing what is really true for me to create.  Also realising that there was a treasure in that very, very low place… that gave me hope.  No matter what, we can choose to direct our thoughts.


About Appreciation

Last night, my dream come true foster doggy Napoleon guided me down to the sea, it was Equinox and I’d had a very magical day.  When I got there I was mesmerised by the flickering of the light of the moon on the rippling water.  It was as if fairies and nymphs were celebrating the very fact that we’re alive, and have the most wonderful capability of THOUGHT!  Yes, I often put down my thoughts, because, in all honesty, they can dwell on the things I don’t want to manifest, but actually what a blessing it is to be able to think… when it’s directed towards imagining…. imagining what we love.

As I sat there, I felt a familiar, and adorable all over tingling in my body.

They call it ‘Chicken skin’ in Hawaii.  It is a sign that you’re connected with Source, and you’re downloading light, and more energy into your body.  It also means that what you’re thinking or talking about is TRUTH!

It started to happen, when I was in nature, and when I was appreciating it and I had a big ‘aha’ moment and realised that every time I get this feeling, I’m appreciating something or someone.

The guidance I got was to be in appreciation.  That is all – when you appreciate something, or someone you connect yourself with LOVE…

Find ANYTHING to be grateful for.  It doesn’t matter what, there is ALWAYS something to be grateful for, and it is so much easier when you’re out in nature.

At the moment we’re in cycles of downloading more light into our bodies, and clearing our energy, and letting go of what doesn’t serve.. i.e. negative emotions, memories, patterns etc.  There’s a lot of stuff coming up for people.

So remember, whatever cycle of the journey you’re in, ‘this too shall pass’.

You’re not alone, we’re all experiencing what I jokingly refer to as ‘interesting times’.  Stay with us – don’t check out. The people who are experiencing the lowest of the low, have the BIGGEST gifts and offerings for the world… don’t deprive the world of your magic.  Believe it or not, down at the bottom of that pit where you are… is your greatest gift… you’ll be sharing your experiences and learnings with the world.

Stay with us!

I love you.

PLEASE share this post, it’s SO important for anyone who’s having a difficult time to know that there IS light at the end of the tunnel.


Ascension, Heaven On Earth Energy Update

Light Switch Time….

A note regarding September energies.


This is a very powerful month to say the least.  We’ve just had a solar eclipse coinciding with the new moon – you might be still feeling the effects of that (keep being gentle with yourself).  There’s an equinox next week, two more eclipses, and a full moon which is a blood moon as well as Mercury going retrograde!

There’s a massive amount of energy reaching the planet on 27/28 September which has been labelled ‘Wave X’.  Spiritual, religious, government and scientific leaders are all acknowledging this and depending on their perspective, it will be a planet changer!  There are meetings of world leaders later in the month (see links below for info on Wave X and more on the current astrology).

What does this mean for you?

Well, in your heart you know.

Everyone is on a different journey, and in a different place on that journey.

There are some who have been working on themselves for a very long time, some who have started recently and some who are waking up now.  Many are finding life very intense, experiencing the shifts coming in waves, and many are seeing their lives shifting before their very eyes, with dramas and illness increasing – so they are having to pay attention to their soul!

The vibration of the earth is shifting, we are all becoming more and more aware that the planet and ourselves are all ascending to higher and higher vibrations.  The lightbearers, lightworkers, lightplayers, changemakers, whatever you want to call them (you – if you’re reading this), have been creating a path for sometime… making it easier for others to walk that path.  Leading the way, surrendering and clearing more and more of their own density, with the ingredients of self love, gentleness, humour and joy.  They’ve often had a really tough time, clearing their own stuff, growing, climbing mountain after mountain to become the best possible version of themselves.  These are usually those who are leaders in their own way – often teachers, healers, coaches, people working closer to nature and focussing on making this world a better place whether that be through energy, new inventions or creations.

Many of you are finding a soul wrenching pull between living in heaven on earth – 5D (dimension) and earth – 3D (dramas, old world, security, day to day preoccupations).  The old Shamanic phrase comes to mind ‘a foot in both worlds’.  This can be magical, and it can be like hell on earth as you feel physical symptoms, literal heart pain, palpitations, anxiety, solar plexus explosions, navel/stomach upsets and the like.  Some are experiencing what seems like ‘Kundalini Rising’… powerful energies rising up the spine.  If the energy stops at a certain chakra, that’s where there’s work to be done.

From my own experience, I had a Kundalini Rising experience last week which went right up to my crown… it was incredible.  Then, the other day, it stopped in the area of my sacral and solar plexus chakras… that resulted in a clearing which manifested as digestive disorders which ca me & went for a couple of das wit some BIG realisations on being in my power & asserting boundaries.  It’s amazing how clear it all seems now – when we’ve got stuff to clear… we’ll clear it in the most effective way!  We need to clear anything from these lower chakras to move more and more into the heart space.

For each chakra there are different ‘symptoms’ and you can google each chakra to find out more.  If you are experiencing a symptom or illness search for that, with the word ‘chakra’ and you will find out more about it, it’s too much to cover in this blog post.  If you need guidance, feel free to contact me.  Please be aware not to use this as a tactic to stay in your head.  I think it’s great to have understanding, but the most important thing is to EXPERIENCE whatever is going on without judgement.  That is what will move you through and out of whatever is happening which might be causing you pain of one kind or another, and into the life you are dreaming of.

Surrender.  That.  Is. All.

“Set your intention for how you’d love your life to be and hey presto.”

There might also be challenges in your life for instance boundary issues, speaking your truth and so on.  Still related to strengthening and clearing energy in the chakras so you are more and more in your truth (read in your heart).  We can’t go into the new with our old patterns, beliefs and negative thoughts.  We are moving into a time of more instant manifestation, so this clearing is necessary.  Many are saying there will be a mass consciousness change (or Ascension) on 27/28 September. I believe that it will be as it has been – gradual, with perhaps a bit of a boost around that time.  It’s something to celebrate – so like always, and every day I recommend that you set your intention for how you’d love your life to be and hey presto.

Shine In Your Greatness

Shine In Your Greatness

I’ve always believed that when we die, we go wherever we believe heaven is.  It’s been a deep soul knowing that has always rang true.  We become whatever age we love being. We are the person who we love… the one who never had the ‘stuff’, who never needed to grow, to heal, to change.  That is our wonderful, magnificent, divine selves.  It is the same as we ascend; aging stops, we magnetise everything we love, and is true to be in our lives.  We live in flow…  It doesn’t mean we are not still expriencing ‘3D’, we are, but it is with a compassion, understanding and love.

It is SO important to have a dream…  focus on that more than 51% of the time and it is law that says it will manifest (The Law of Attraction).  It’s a bit like having shares in a company, with 51% shares, you have the power 😉  Although clarity is important, do let go of fine details (like who, where, etc.)… The more flexible, and fluid you are with your dream, the more the energies of pure, white magic it contains.  By focussing on particular people, or places, or details, we are actually limiting ourselves.  Spirit knows the highest dream of your soul.


PLEASE …. TAKE TIME OUT IN NATURE … (that’s where the magic lies, it’s also where you will experience more synchronicities, and messages from spirit).


BREATHE some more 😉

FLOW… like the river, it takes the path of least resistance… then ka booom… it’s flowing with a power so awesome, it creates rainbows, energy, joy, love, passion, dreams come true….  When the water hits a rock… it simply flows around it ….

Rainbow Falls, Hawai'i

Rainbow Falls, Hawai’i

Information on 

Astrology click here

Wave X & World Leaders meeting – great article click here

11 111 1111 11:11 Numbers, Symbols & Their Significance

Considering mathematics was my least favourite subject at school, it’s comical that I get so much guidance from numbers!  They have a big part in my life as my fascination for the shift into higher states of consciousness, more fun and love continues..…

I sent out an email last month explaining some of the meanings of repetitive numbers as I was guided to share the meaning of ‘999’ with them.  I kept getting nudges to share the message to  many LIGHTWORKERS (practitioners, healers, coaches, raw foodies, chefs, alchemists, acupuncturists, changemakers of every kind).  The message was…

‘Lightworkers – Get To Work!’

I was seeing the numbers ‘999’ everywhere.  Every time I thought about my upcoming newsletter, or asked for guidance on what to put in my next blog, there it was ‘999’!

I got such a positive response that I decided to cover all the numbers in the next few newsletters…. more on the number ‘999’ here.

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11 111 11:11 

Let’s start with “1”.

What does it mean when you see repetitive ones, OR if it’s a 111 day? You have an enhanced opportunity to move into higher states of consciousness and joy at these times.  It is like a doorway, when you move through this portal, and gateway you gain more power… power to dream the future you would love into being.

When numbers appear in sequence, for instance on number plates, or the clock, or on the side of a lorry, or whatever clever way our guides have of saying HELLOOO, it’s time to take notice!

You probably have your own personal meanings for numbers, for instance if you see your date of birth, it could be a message that you’re about to have a rebirth experience.

In case numbers are a new phenomenon for you, here’s a guideline.  Take what resonates, and also start noticing synchronicities with numbers which have relevance for you.  Any symbol has a message for us, depending on how we interpret it.  If you see recurring pictures of birds, or real birds, or animals, go with what resonates.

Everything has a message and it’s a wonderful way to connect to your higher self, spirit, your guides or wherever you source your guidance from.

Remember too that you can ask for more guidance if you’re unclear about the message being conveyed.

11 111 11:11

  •   This is a prompt to become conscious of your thoughts.
  •   What are you thinking when you see this?  If you’re not thinking about something you’d like to manifest, then start to focus on what you WOULD love.
  •   Seeing repetitive 1 is a very positive sign, it means that you are a powerful manifesting being.  Remember to focus on the area you would love to change, and what you would LOVE in your life.  Feel the emotions you’ll feel when you have manifested what you love, and be thankful.

Doreen Virtue says; “This sequence is a sign that there is a gate of opportunity opening up, and your thoughts are manifesting into form at record speeds. The 111 is like the bright light of a flash bulb. It means the universe has just taken a snapshot of your thoughts and is manifesting them into form. Are you pleased with what thoughts the universe has captured? If not, correct your thoughts (ask your angels to help you with this if you have difficulty controlling, or monitoring your thoughts).”

More 11 111 1111 meanings… 

It is also is the bridge between duality and Oneness; our pathway into the Unknown.

It is “the Gateway”, the doorway to your evolving self, and your path within the current ascension of the planet.

It is a manifestation number. It means you are in a moment where you can create for your life, so be sure your thoughts are very positive.

It is a sign of new beginnings and activating your UNIQUE creative abilities.  It’s the Universe saying ‘Go For It!’

If you get nervous, or fear or other ‘negative’ emotions come up when you think about what you would love, I would like to share a powerful exercise with you.  It is a powerful alchemical tool which allows you to clear the lower vibrational emotions (sadness, fear, guilt, shame, anger, frustration etc.), which can keep manifestations away.

To access the free guided ‘Soul Discovery: Alchemical Release’ process for clearing blocks to manifesting what you love, Click here for free access.


Even a butterfly represents something magical

Even a butterfly represents something magical… rebirth, transformation, beauty!

My 11.11 Story

I have my favourite numbers, ‘777’ being my most favourite, but in terms of dates 11/11 is definitely my favourite.

Two years ago I flew into Guatemala on 11.11.

Even though I was going to be in Sacred Mayan Lands for 12.12.12 and the much talked about 21.12.12, I wasn’t super excited about the trip, but it actually turned out to be one of the most synchromagically orchestrated trips of my life!  

My flight was delayed in Mexico for a few hours, and eventually we landed in Guatemala City at 11.11 pm (I’m already thinking okaaaay… here we go… what’s coming up?)!  As the plane circled for landing, we were greeted by 4 bolts of lighting.  Another inkling at the possibility that this was not going a ‘normal’ trip.

A little while before, I did a wonderful process which I use with all of my long-term coaching clients where I visit my version of “Heaven on Earth”, I got total clarity on my “Soul Path”.  Abraham Hicks calls this ‘The Vortex”, where you get clarity on everything the highest version of you wants and has in store for you.  It’s a state of being totally in flow, and in the LOVE vibration, where you ARE living your highest potential AND joy. When I visited my version of ‘Heaven on Earth’, I had visions of what looked like Ayahuasca Ceremomies. I was a little baffled as I didn’t think that was my path. Anyway, I know to let go of visions, as occasionally we can get caught up in the little details, when actually our soul has a much bigger idea of what it’s all about.

So, to cut a long story short (!), once we landed, my intuition led me to the Guatemalan highlands. I had no idea why, but I constantly tuned into my intuition, and it gave me the next step to take… then the next (this is the only way the intuition works… unlike the ego/head which wants to know and see the WHOLE journey mapped out lol). I followed each and every baby step… 

In the apparently ‘scary’ unknown, I heard of someone called “The Chocolate Shaman” and “The Spirit of Cacao”.  More on that below, but I had some of the most life-changing experiences of my life and so many that I am most honoured & grateful for.  To read more about this trip & my discovery of the Magic of Cacao click here.

Lake Atitlan

Lake Atitlan, Guatemala

I now work with The Spirit of Cacao – Sacred, Ceremonial grade chocolate is ‘The Food For The Shift’.

Cacao brings people to their hearts, living a more love-orientated life, while using their heads too!  It allows them to connect with their inner world, and let go of what is creating what they DON’T love in their outer world.

I’ve trained others to run their own ceremonies and held them all over the planet, working with The Spirit of Cacao is a beautiful privilege, as she represents the Gentle, Powerful way of the new paradigm.  I love taking her hand as she works with me, and others to allow us to shine in our brilliance, and gently, lovingly release density.

Shaman preparing Ceremonial Chocolate
Shaman preparing Ceremonial Chocolate

I discovered Sacred Cacao as a powerful medicine to share in ceremonies, allowing others to open their hearts, and let go of anything that could be holding them back.  My path totally changed from the possible route of working in LA, to this path which develops in a more and more blissful way with each tiny, baby step I take.

Chocolate is now a massive part of my life.  Fore more on that see these blogs 13 Spiritual Uses For Chocolate And A Fun Life Purpose; Meeting Choccy Shaman!

Sign up for my blog at or book a ‘Soul Path Discovery’ session, or a ‘What’s my version of ‘Heaven on Earth” session. We’ll have an initial complimentary chat and take it from there. This could be the first, powerful step in manifesting what you truly love!

I’ll be continuing to go through significant meanings for all the numbers, so stay tuned.

Next blog what does ‘222’ represent and why is it so important to take certain affirmative action when you see it?  What does it mean about your manifestations when you see 222?

Please comment below.  What do repetitive numbers mean to you?  What other numbers do you love to see, and what do you feel that they signify?

What’s your favourite number sequence, and what is its message?

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