I was just about to message one of my mentors, and ask what to do when I feel totally overcome with love… which happens a lot recently.
The answer that came to me before… and again now, was this… share it.
So here I am – blogging – writing, with no idea where this is going … which is one of my favourite tings…. Making shit up. Good shit though. Sorry, but that’s pretty much the only word that will suffice right now… but it’s GOOD shit… ha ha, well I hope so; I hope it’s good for you. (a little ‘ps.’ here… in a totally inappropriate place… but if you’ve got writer’s block, or you want to tell a story… just start ‘making it up’… it’s another word for channeling… let me know how you get on, and if I’m making no sense at all, pop a comment below or ask me and I’ll explain more about this – but believe me, it’s magic… when you’re making ‘good’ stuff up.).
So, what are you making up? Do you make up good stuff?
When you’re feeling blue, what do you make up?
You see, something I realized recently was that our feelings come first, then the thoughts… often we have a feeling, and rather than just having it – feeling it… we make stuff up about it. We define ourselves, others or the world depending on the feeling. Often those thoughts really don’t serve us and enhance the shit feeling.
Howeverrrr…. I know that very often when I had a really GOOD feeling.. like I was feeling AMAZING my little (?!) ego, mind whatever you want to call it, would still make bad shit up! So, I’d find myself going ‘OMG I’m SO happy’, and then I’d hear my internal voice, or gremlin as I started to call it say something like; “Ah yes, but what about….”… (fill in the blank). My ego/mind would choose an area of my life I could worry about and my great feeling would totally dissipate and be replaced by a feeling of doom, fear, worry etc.
Photo courtesy of Liza Brown; Mahalo you sweet lady!
Right now though, I’m sitting in the evening sun, it’s a summery balmy evening, the sun is about an hour from setting, I can smell the oceanic fresh aroma, and feel the sensual salty sea breeze on my cheek. The birds are flying around my head, choosing where to settle tonight, the kids are playing down below –only a few weeks into the summer, yet about 75 shades browner than a few weeks ago before the summer break.
Life is good.
I am a lucky lady.
Right now, I feel gratitude, love, and a renewed faith in the words:
Please forgive me
I love you.
A la Ho’ponopono from Hawaii (see my facebook note (click here) if you want to find out more about that.
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It’s Equniox time! At “Equinox” daytime and nighttime are of approximately the same duration. It is a time where the light and dark are in equal balance, its opposite is Solstice which occurs in the summer. Our ancestors were very connected with the mystical and powerful properties of Equinox and Solstice. They honored these times with ceremony and celebration. It is a time of endings and new beginnings. They are the ‘still times’, before the new season, the mid point of the year. The ‘in between’ and ‘unknown’…the place where magic, mystery and miracles dwell to be woken up and tapped into. You can tap into this power for your own life with the awareness of this potent gap in time.
“As above, so below.” Honor this time of rejuvenation, refreshment and rebirth; here are some tips to get you in tune with the force of nature that you are in essence!
8. Create an altar
It’s a great time to create an altar, get some flowers, incense, candles, sage and objects with special meaning and place them with intention. It’s a great focus for meditation and a sacred place to go to when you need some time out. If you already have an altar, you could freshen it up by adding fresh flowers, a crystal or something special.
Do so with intention… what do they represent? Intentions? Gratitude? An honoring of your ancestors, or your love life, or your career or another area of your life? Play with it. Visualize your life just as you would love it.
Take some time to really quiet the mind. The easiest way to do this is to stop and take some slow, deep, conscious breaths. This quiets the mind and connects you with your spirit. A quiet mind can receive guidance, inspiration and ‘aha’ moments.
Create a sacred space and time to write down what you wish to manifest or create in the next 6 months, 1 year, 5 years, 10 years. What legacy would you like to leave the planet with?
‘When you look back at your life, what are the 5 things you have done, that you are most proud of?”
Treat your journal as your new best friend. You know the phrase ‘better out than in’? Well, if your head is full of worries, jot them down in your journal. It will clear your mind, and allow inspiration and guidance to come through.
5. Clear your space
Space clearing, cleaning, clearing out clutter is a great way to say to the Universe “I am ready! I’ve created new, clear, sacred space to allow what I love into my life.”
Psychologically you’re clearing house, and ensuring that you set up the conditions for more of what you love in life. For more info on the power of this, just check out any feng shui websites or books. If there is a particular area of your life you’d like more luck with, it will represent a corner of your home, so check it out, and clear that space.
4. Plant seeds!
There’s always something you can plant – at any time of the year. Even if you don’t have seeds, tend to your garden, or sent an intention. What would you like to grow?
Apart from honoring mother earth, and your creative abilities, planting seeds or ideas is a wonderful way to ground yourself. When you are grounded, you can connect to divine inspiration and bring more of heaven to earth in your life. Living in heaven on earth is the new paradigm… it is just about changing your perception and seeing the magic already in your life! Then more, and more and more…
3. Greet the sunrise
Sunrise is a very sacred time of the day, especially at Equinox!
I ADORE Rumi; this is one of my favourite quotations written by him;
“The breezes at dawn have secrets to tell you
Don’t go back to sleep!
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep!
People are going back and forth
across the doorsill where the two worlds touch,
The door is round and open
Don’t go back to sleep!”
I can honestly say, that in all the years that I got out of bed when I woke before sunrise, I’ve had the BEST day ever. It really sets you up for the day.
Write a list of things you are grateful for.
Every morning when you wake up, before anything… recite the things you are grateful for.
No matter how you are feeling it WILL make you feel better. One of my favourite mentors used to say ‘Mood Is Everything’. It is SO true… when you feel good, you magnetize more magic into your life.
Write a list of awesome things about you – and read them out to friend. Get them to validate you, and add to your list. Then swap. If you feel like your confidence and self worth needs a boost, that’s a great thing to do!
1. Hold A Ceremony
When nighttime and daytime are of equal duration, it reflects our male and female energies in balance… as light and dark are balanced in the world, so it is a great time to focus on balance in your life.
Whatever your ceremony involves, if you bring the quality of ‘sacredness’ to it, it will be perfect. I also love to include FUN in my ceremonies. After all, that’s why we are on planet earth!
Remember to honor your ancestors, spirit guides, power animals, angels, Ascended Masters, or whoever you seek guidance from.
Even better, if you have some sacred ceremonial grade chocolate you can have a ceremony with others, or on your own (more on how Chocolate is the vehicle for therapy, guidance, fun, spiritual enlightenment and so much more click here). Take a dose and tune into your intention. What would you like guidance on, what would you like to release (ideal for Southern Hemisphere/Autumn people), what would you like to create (ideal for Northern Hemisphere/Spring people). Drink, and be guided.
I’m holding a free online Equinox ceremony – all you need is a computer or a phone, to register click here. You’ll also get a report on how to manifest MONEY in your life, and we will be setting intentions for NEW BEGINNINGS in every area of life. I know many balk at the idea that money is a spiritual path, but in 5D living… living in Heaven on Earth – money DOES have a place, and it reflects much of how we see ourselves… including self worth. How do we value ourselves? How do we treat the energy of money?
Would you like more abundance in your life?
If you are ready for a new beginning in your money area, check out this report and discover how to move into a new, abundant, wealthy life click here to download the report.
One of the things I realized on my journey to leave behind my life of illness, scarcity, and loneliness was that I needed to find the common thread between why most areas of my life simply weren’t working. When I got to the core of the issues, everything in my life slowly started to change and I was able to create an awesome life. One of the BIGGEST areas I needed to clean up was my relationship with money. Until you have a healthy money relationship, your money problems will continue. Heal that relationship, and every other area heals too. Discover the link between money lack and self worth and how you can heal it! Check out the report here.
I just read a post on Facebook by the wonderful Elizabeth Gilbert, author of ‘Eat Pray Love’ which was also a film starring Julia Roberts, and most recently the fabulous ‘Big Magic’.
Her post was a call to women to simply love themselves – ALL of themselves. This is totally my philosophy, and what I work with in sessions with clients – when you love whatever arises, you see the treasure in the tough times, and alchemise them into the next steps on your path to creating everything you love.
Having just spent some time totally confined to bed with the yukky ‘shingles’ – I’m slowly recovering as I integrate all the learnings and gifts I’ve received while ill. I did A LOT of soul searching over the last few weeks and among the realisations was this gem. It’s nothing new to me… but I got it, on a deeper, more profound, juicy level. I am celebrating!
You must love yourself… is this a cliche now?
How do we love ourselves?
Well, here’s Elizabeth Gilbert’s post. She poses a lot of questions, with a lot of gemstone answers!
I hope you enjoy it.
Credit Elizabeth Gilbert
I’m worried about something. I’m worried about how much we hate ourselves.
When I say “we”, I mean modern people in the developed Western world, primarily. And among that population, it is the women who hate themselves most of all — who harm themselves, sabotage themselves, bully themselves, undermine themselves, and speak to themselves in voices of unthinkable cruelty.
Increasingly, I believe that the vast majority of our suffering is a result of this epidemic. And I am CERTAIN that everything you want for your life — everything you want to feel and believe and become — is on the other side of that dark river of self-hatred and self-abuse.
We have to stop this.
I won’t be talking today about the causes of our self-hatred. I don’t want to drift into the easy blame of “the media’s images of women”, or “the patriarchy”, or “the internet” or “the emotional disconnect of the post-industrial world” or even “our fucked up families.” Because you know what? I DON’T KNOW. I’m not smart enough to know what this is all about, or where the self-hatred comes from. I just know that it’s prevalent, it’s contagious, it’s really dangerous, and that we are destroying ourselves with it.
Sharon Salzberg, the great American meditation master, tells a story about meeting the Dalai Lama in 1990. She asked him what he thought about self-hatred, and he replied, “Self-hatred? What is that?”
Seriously. He didn’t know what she was talking about. He kept probing: How could people be taught to hate THEMSELVES?
The room was filled with Western meditators, scientists, pyschologists, and researchers, and over the next hours they tried to explain it to the Dalai Lama — tried to answer his puzzled question of how a person could be taught to hate themself. But he remained puzzled. He said, at the end of it all, “I thought I had a good acquaintance with the mind, but now I feel quite ignorant. I find this very, very strange.”
Unlike the Dalai Lama, I know self-hatred inside and out, you guys. I know self-blame, shame, self-recrimination, and I have certainly experienced rage against my own machine. I know what it feels like to look at every molecule of your being (physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual) and declare: NOT GOOD ENOUGH, KID. And I know that this way lies madness. Madness and pain, and the death of all good things.
I also know this — that the answer is not to become A BETTER PERSON. The answer is not to IMPROVE. The answer is not TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. And this is coming from somebody who loves improving, who loves striving, and who is always trying to get her shit together. Look, trying to improve yourself is FINE, if that’s what you’re into. Exercise more, eat better, become more productive, de-clutter your house — whatever. Getting your shit together is very nice. Do all that stuff, if you want to. (I certainly do all that stuff, and I don’t judge it.) But understand this — PEACE WILL NOT BE FOUND THERE. Your house can be so tidy that you could invite Marie Kondo over for dinner with pride, and maybe someday you can achieve rock-hard abs, and maybe someday you could get out debt, and land your dream job, finally stop drinking….and you might STILL hate yourself.
Because the darkness of self-hatred is immune to any worldly accomplishment or success. Achievement does not touch the part of yourself who abuses yourself. The world is filled with highly successful and accomplished people who treat themselves horribly, who talk to themselves savagely, and who abuse themselves terribly. If you could see inside their heads and witness the dreadful conversations going on in there, you would be shocked. You would be shocked, and maybe you would cry. And maybe you would want to take that highly successful and deeply troubled person in your arms and say, “There, there, little small one…there, there…hush, hush…”
Peace will only be found when you can love all the parts of yourself that you have always hated.
I used to think that self-love would only come to me when I had “cleaned up my act” — only when I had gotten rid of all my bad behaviors, only when I had mastered my mind, only when I had driven out all the negative thoughts, only when I had forgiven everyone for everything, only when I had made amends for every mess I had ever caused, only when I could see divinity in everybody, only when I never lost my temper, only when I no longer experienced “bad” emotions like anger, jealousy, resentment, self-pity. In other words, I could not love myself until I had become WORTHY.
Which means…what? Which means: I believed that I could not love myself until I was some kind of polished golden orb of perfection, with an immaculately-controlled mind, a healthy body, and a totally clean record. Someone who would never make another misstep, never speak another unkind word, never be a fuck-up again in any way whatsoever…ever. Then I could love myself.
But who is that? Who is that person I have just described?
That person is nobody. That person is no human being who has ever lived.
And once you realize that, then you realize that we are all this same boat together. That everything you hate about yourself is nothing less than your HUMANITY. Your shared humanity. That you and I, and your neighbor Bob, and your awful sister-in-law, and all those shiny people on Instagram…that we all share the same human dilemma — that we all don’t totally know how to BE, and what to do with ourselves. We all have these strange minds full of incomprehensible thoughts. We all have these untrustworthy hearts that often want forbidden things. We all have these funny ape-like bodies with weird urges. We all have these enormous souls filled with a desperate longing for belonging.
You are no different from me, and I am no different from your neighbor Bob, and your neighbor Bob is no different from your awful sister-in-law, and your awful sister-in-law is no different from all those shiny people on Instagram. There is a massive sense of tenderness that comes over me when I remember that we are all the same in our shared dilemma of how to be a person. We are all in this together. We are a bizarre but beautiful species. And if you believe that human beings need love, and deserve love…then you must someday grow into the belief that YOU also need love and deserve love, and that you must stop being so stingy about giving it to yourself.
You must not think that love is something you give to yourself as a reward, only if you have earned it — like some kind of gold star sticker that you get to put on your homework today if you are good…but maybe not tomorrow, if you fuck up.
You have to give yourself love all the time.
Giving yourself love doesn’t mean that every day is spa day. (Although, hey. If you can swing it…) Giving yourself love doesn’t mean buying yourself fancy presents, or constantly treating yourself, or spoiling yourself. (You are not SEDUCING yourself, remember. You are not trying to get yourself in bed. You are just being kind and loving to yourself.) Giving yourself love doesn’t mean becoming Kanye-like in your insistence that you are the greatest.
You are not the greatest. But you are also not the WORST. And I bet there have been days of your life (maybe years of your life) where all you do is walk around telling yourself that you are the WORST. And I bet that nothing good has ever come out of that way of thinking.
You are not the greatest, and you are not the worst. You are just one of us.
I have tried a radical experiment recently. I call it: THE EXTREME LOVE EXPERIMENT.
Whenever I have a dark thought — a “forbidden” thought, like anger, jealousy, resentment, lust, shame, contempt — I immediately say to myself, “I love the part of you, Liz, who is full of anger right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who is ashamed of yourself right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who can’t stop judging yourself right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who feels weak and helpless right now.”
or: ‘I love the part of you who just had an explicitly violent fantasy about watching that person who is talking loudly on her cellphone suddenly have her head blow up.”
or: “I love the part of you who is still having an argument in your head with a man you haven’t talked to in 15 years.”
or: “I love the part of you who broke your New Year’s resolution on January 4th.”
or: “I love the part of you who believes that she is such a spiritual hypocrite, it’s ridiculous.”
or: “I love the vain/insecure part of you who stands in front of the mirror lifting up the dangly flesh on your neck and wondering if there’s some kind of plastic surgery for that.”
or: “I love the part of you who is jealous of that other novelist for winning that big award.”
I used to try to banish all those parts of myself. Because they were BAD. They were WRONG. They were UNEVOLVED. They were NEGATIVE.
But banishing the parts of myself that I hated has never worked. The more I try to banish them, the stronger they grow. The more I hated these parts of myself, the more they multiplied. It’s like my self-hatred was fertilizer — creating a dark, warm, nourishing environment for all those “bad” thoughts and impulses to grow…and as they grew, they destroyed me.
Now I just say to the dark thought, “I love this part of you”…and the dark thought loses its power.
I understand now that I am not a SELF. I am SELVES. I am thousands of different selves — and all of them are worthy of love.
To say, “I love you,” is the only force strong enough to diffuse darkness.
And here’s the crazy thing — this habit is starting to spread out of me, and I can now do it toward others.
For instance, I now have the capacity to think: “I love the part of my husband who is constantly interrupting me. This is just his weird humanity at play.”
Followed by: “And I love the part of me who gets so freaking irritated about how my husband is constantly interrupting me.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who doesn’t really BELIEVE that I love the part of my husband who is constantly interrupting me.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who is saying that this EXTREME LOVE EXPERIMENT is total bullshit, and it will never work.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who wonders if I will ever truly love myself.”
And it goes on like that. But I go on, too. I just keep throwing love at everything that comes up…until finally it all gently quiets down.
And it does all finally gently quiet down.
I love all these dark parts of myself not because they are wonderful and adorable and perfect and fantastic, but because they are THERE. My dark bits are with me and they will likely always be with me. Just as your dark parts are with you and will likely always be with you. All that is there needs to be loved.
As they say: “It’s not a bug; it’s a FEATURE.”
Our humanity is not an ERROR. Our crazy thoughts are not MISTAKES. Our scary longings and giant failures and ongoing disasters are not ABERRATIONS.
This is merely what it is to be a person — messy, weird, inconsistent, doubtful. This is how we ARE, and that has to be OK, or else nobody is OK.
We are not some early Dell Computer Operating System, here to be de-bugged. We are not some new product for sale, here to be perfected. The goal is not to become an immaculate golden orb. The goal is to return to a place of kindness, where you can be gentle with yourself and others, no matter what arises. This requires, I think, a friendly sort of loving humor about who you are and who we all are. Why does the Dalai Lama have such a twinkle about him? Because he gets it. He gets that it’s kind of funny, how we are. Even when it’s terrible. The whole thing is…very, very strange. And that’s OK. It’s strange, but it’s sacred.
And I believe there no is gentler or safer place to stand on this earth than in a place where you can say to yourself, “I love every bit of you, you beautiful freak.”
The Buddha said it better, of course. The Buddha said, “You can search the whole world over and never find anyone as deserving of love as yourself.”
In other words: Be good to you, OK?
Please put down the knife you have been holding to your own throat. You don’t deserve that kind of abuse, and it won’t help.
Just try it. Try saying to your scariest bits: “I love this part of you.”
And then say it again to the next part…and the next part…and the next part…and the next part…and ONWARD.
Good luck in there.
Again credited to Elizabeth Gilbert, author, and pretty amazing wise woman.
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Yum yum yum… well I’m still in Ceremony, but I wanted to share my heart and the space I’m in.. . which is still ‘in between’. I feel happier, I had a BIG ‘aha’ moment during which the fairy lights in my bedroom which have been on and off for a while, but off for at least a month or two started working again! Lol. It was metaphorical for the fact that WE can start working (being on a high vibration, lit up, bringing SUCH incredible JOY), with the simplest little adjustment and checking in. That’s what happened with my lights, it was just ONE little bulb that had broken – there was actually not even any glass in it, so I took it out, and replaced it…da naaaa … bringing SUCH inredible joy, light and love….
I’m more in tune with my emotions, and I feel a heaviness, which translates as the emotion of sadness in my heart….
Still seeing where this is going.
Happy to have my adorable doggy companion Napoleon to be with me as the space holder today.
Day out of time…. July 25, 2015
The ‘in between’ in the Mayan calendar.
A day of being… dreaming… gentleness…
The void, the unknown where potential lies… the space where magic, mystery and wonder dwell.
Take time to silence your mind…. breathe… become conscious.
I first became conscious of the ‘day out of time‘ in 2012 when I had a palpable sense that something very strange and magical was in the air. All day long there was a potent-full, intense but gentle, full stop and a skip kinda energy in the air. I asked around and discovered it was the ‘day out of time’!! I was blown away – I don’t usually feel that particular dates are important as time is simply made up anyway. In hindsight though, I wonder if I felt its intensity because unbeknownst to me, a few months later I would follow my intuition and embark on a life-changing journey to the Mayan lands to meet a Chocolate Shaman (click here for more on that)!
Take time today to honour your journey and dream your future in …. that can all be done with just a few breaths.
I’m with the clan this weekend, by the sea, hoping the sunshine comes out tomorrow after an entire day of full on rain! Ready for sunnnny times and a private Cacao Ceremony to give gratitude and connect more and more to my bliss as I dream even some dreams I may not have even considered yet 😉
More about the “Day Out of Time” – Annually July 25th (from http://www.souledout.org/wecyclewisdom/node/493)
This is the last day of the galactic year in the Mayan and Galactic calendar.
(13 moons of 28 days = 364 days ~ the extra day, the 365th day, is July 25, the “Day Out Of Time”)
This is a special day for ritual, meditation and prayer.
In 2014 the Galactic New Year (July 26) is the second year in the 7-year cycle from 2013-2020 of Opening the Seven Light Gates.
This Day out of Time we open the Second Light Gate!
Yellow Galactic Star (7/25/14)
Spiritual quality of this Day Out of Time “Yellow Star’s star-seeded gift is the revelation of the harmony that unites all things.”
Red Solar Moon Year July 26, 2014 – July 25, 2015
“You are on the quest of self-remembrance, of Godseed … As you open to self-remembrance, you become a beacon and receiver for cosmic consciousness.”
I feel raw today. Like all the “stuff” I’ve cleared and felt over the last few years is coming up in a jingle of raw emotion to be felt and cleared again. That’s A LOT of emotion!
I’ve been feeling so totally on top of the world, I held a ceremony on Saturday, and as facilitator, apart from the intention of serving the groups’ hearts and souls, I was curious about holding onto my light, high vibration. The guidance I got was that the emotions come and go, nothing right, nothing wrong. Back to ‘The Magic of Flow’.
Yesterday was the start of a day and a half with no plans, not seeing friends, no play, no sessions – just ME with myself.
Life has been a whirlwind of total bliss the last few weeks, since I stepped through a level of fear and journeyed from my gorgeous home, leaving my doggy, and embarking on what I thought would be a bit of a grim visit to London (cos I didn’t want to go).
In fact, my ego tried to prevent me from going with all sorts of stuff coming up including a physical pain so bad, I had to take a painkiller the day I flew (I have taken about 3 painkillers in the last 5/6 years – they are NOT a part of my life). You see I know there’s always a message in illness, and it’s simply a disconnection from source.
However, I could not get an answer to why on earth I was getting this unbearable earache. Once I took the painkiller and had a nap (great for the inner child), I woke up and had a loving chat with myself. I woke without pain, and it was bliss. What I realised was that I had created the pain, and it was a subtle, yet very uncomfortable form of self sabotage.
Now that I’ve been on my adventure for nearly three weeks, I can honestly say that I’ve had the best time ever! I’ve created some wonderful Ceremonies, met new, amazing people, connected in deep ways, and not so deep ways with beautiful hearts and oh so, so much more! I realise now, that my ego did not want me to follow my heart; the ego is simply about SURVIVAL. It is not motivated to encourage you to be MAGNIFICENT, step up and follow your dreams.
So, today, as I sit with my vulnerability, and a dose of sadness, there’s a myriad of realisations coming to me. This time last year, I was probably in one of the toughest times of my life emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally. I’d been in a space of attracting ‘bullies’ into my life. This was NOT something I was used to. I was also in a space of being a ‘good person’, so when almost publicly humiliated I did not fight back. I had no idea how to deal with it, but all that time I felt the presence of Saint Mary Magdalene with me and the message that kept coming to me was this:
No matter what people said about her (they called her a prostitute and a sinner), she never defended herself – because if she had done, it would be sinking to lower levels of human bickering, judgement and chaos. Doreen Virtue wrote about Saint Mary Magdalene, and she appears as one of the Goddesses in her wonderful Oracle Cards, she says; ‘The lower levels of human bickering, judgement and chaos are just that; lower levels. I choose to do my work from the level of the higher consciousness, where love reigns supreme. It’s here where the most good can be done, and I urge you to do the same. Where you dwell in consciousness, is where you truly dwell. So, focus your thoughts on the good things that you can find in people, and rise above all appearances otherwise…… Call upon her for forgiveness, and opening your heart to more love.”
What I learned, especially today, as I feel old feelings of sadness, and even some anger bubbling up, is that gentleness is the path. We need to feel the whole gamut of emotions, the trick is not to get stuck there, as Joseph Campbell so eloquently said ‘Pain is inherent, suffering is optional.’
I have a sweet feeling of grace and gratitude in my heart, because guaranteed, at the other side of where I am today is more joy, love and bliss that I could have possibly felt before. Even as I write about where I am, and sip my Sacred Cacao Elixir the feelings are transmuting into clarity on my dreams, and creations. There is also a gentle power in my root chakra, which is coming up to allow me to step more and more into my power, and create the dreams I was ignoring. When I ignored those dreams (especially last year), I attracted those with bullying energy into my life so I would awaken to the next stage of my power.
Feeling overawed, and full of joy for the gifts of clarity, love and peace – Happy feast day of Saint Mary Magdalene!
What I’ve learned today, is that The Magic of Flow is like waves, all emotions come and go, it’s as natural as the rhythm of the ocean. Just remember, that at the other side of a feeling which might feel uncomfortable, are the feelings that you love… and they will be more juicy and powerful than you might have ever felt before. That’s what you create, when you have the strength and power to allow it all.
If you feel a connection with Mary, take a couple of minutes today to just sit and feel your heart. There’s no ‘right way’ to do it, just simply sit and remember it. When you hug a child, you don’t think ‘Am I doing it right?’ It’s the same with loving yourself, and honouring your heart, just take a couple of moments and breathe… and allow the smile in your heart to find you, and as it does feel the smile spread all over your body….. and the world.
Thank you to all my teachers, coaches, mentors, and especially those who came along to show me where I was afraid and not in my power as the Divine Creator Being I AM… and you are too!
Have you or do you feel a connection to Saint Mary Magdalene, please feel free to share. I’d love to know more.
So much love,
I’ve been a little curious (read bothered) recently by judgmental raw foodies and those who choose a certain way of life…. Not so much their choices, but how I’ve perceived them judging/criticising/condemning others who don’t share their beliefs.
As I write, it reminds me of how v fundamentalist religions see others’ path to God as the ‘wrong’ one.
As I sit here in my bliss on a Saturday morning, taking a break on my doggy walk, in Andalucia, musing, meditating and feeling the glorious energy of the sea as I gaze out over the Mediterranean waves, I am totally connected to my bliss. I got a lovely dollop of love as I did so.. imbued with clarity!
When people find THEIR path to God/Bliss/Joy/The Vortex, whatever it is they call it, they want to share it with EVERYONE and probably, in all innocence they actually think it’s the only way. Ha ha – so in my bliss bubble this morning, I see their actions are innocent, and underneath it all, motivated by LOVE!
It got me curious about my paths to bliss. Just to define that state, whatever we call it, it’s absolutely ‘thought-free’. There’s a feeling of joy. Everything, for the split second/s, minutes or longer is just perfect in the world.
Simply find things to be grateful for.
Even in the midst of chaos, or a grim time, if you can find just a teeny thing to be thankful for, you WILL change your mood. The first step to being able to manifest more of what you do love.
Move your body, when you increase your heart rate through exercise, you simply can’t feel good as it releases endorphins.
Same as above, smiling releases endorphins.
4. Clarity on what you love..
And creating it. Sometimes it can be something as simple as painting your nails, having your hair done, having a massage. Pampering basically. Looking after number one.
3. Spend time in nature..
Or even have a flower on your desk, or on your dining table… gaze at it 🙂
Of course walking in the woods, or spending time at the beach is the most awesome thing you can do. Even in the midst of the city, you can still look at the sky and connect to Father Sky..
There are SO many breathing exercises, recently I’m loving Abraham Hicks Vortex Meditations, with
Of course this is going to be number one, I personally think it’s the quickest, most direct route to feeling amazing. It allows you to disconnect from the ‘monkey mind’, and live more from your higher self, connected to the wisdom, love, and light of your soul.
I can’t remember what famed monk whose student told him he didn’t have time to meditate for 15 minutes a day, and the monk said ‘Okay then, meditate for 30 minutes.’ Lol.
There’s a magic in meditation, simply meditating actually creates more time in your day!
“Whatever you do make sure what you’re doing makes you happy.” Weekender, by Flowered Up, great video which I managed to have broadcast on Channel 4 in the 90’s when I worked there – it rocks! Click here to watch. If you’re an old raver you’ll love it, it’s not for everyone. It does have ‘interesting’ language and drug references in it though! I used to love it back in the day because it was so rare to see something like this showing what some young people get up to. I was lucky enough to be a party-er and get out in one piece 🙂 I wouldn’t change it for the world, I had some amazing times, and they changed my life. I have no idea why that quotation came to my mind, maybe it’s because I have a strong dislike for rules, I do what I love, even back in the day I partied, but because I was always in my heart, and I followed sage advice; “if you do drugs, only do them when you’re happy up here (the wonderful person said to me as they pointed to their mind), and happy with the people you’re with”. I received this advice as a child when I was totally anti-drugs, and never thought I’d try anything, ever in my life… when I did, this sage advice always stayed with me. Great advice! I think my experimenting with drugs many years ago definitely brought me to my spiritual path, but I don’t recommend it. I did it when it felt right to me, not from peer pressure, but when it was true for me. So there you go, a little bit of an ‘about me’ confession there 😉 I dont’ do anything like that now, I’m simply too sensitive. Although I am not against things like mushrooms, ayahuasca and the like – taken with honour, and preferably in a ceremonial setting as they can be an incredible aid on the path.
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I just saw a post on facebook saying that the world is going to end, the polar ice caps are melting etc. etc. Lots of ranting, fear-mongering and debate.
Now, I am definitely not going to DENY this and that there is big change afoot and that a lot of people treat this planet disgracefully. However, I know in my heart that when we focus on this, when we give our energy to it, this is what we create.
I feel angry – which is interesting, because I think a lot of these ranters are angry and fearful… they totally push my buttons and I must make a stand.
This was a heart and love motivated post, because I had a big energetic push, followed by a strange dizziness, almost like I was being overcome by spirit telling me I had to speak up… This is is funny because the lovely man who posted the notice wrote a book about the end times and how we pretty much eventually ruin the earth. It’s a wonderful book… however, it looks at ONE possible future… if there’s one thing I’ve learned from my Shamanic studies and life experiences, it’s that there are MANY possible futures, and what manifests is what we focus on. It’s where most of our energy goes… that’s the path and end result we create.
I am passionate that I balance this perspective, because by default, ever since I was a child I used positivity to survive. For many years during my spiritual awakening, time doing therapy, and various deeply transformational studies and courses, I realised how this was a shadow of mine… so I’ve brought it to the light, I’m aware of it, and interestingly enough, I actually became a little embarrassed of my positivity for a while. I was actually ashamed that I was positive. Yes, there was truth in the fact that often I wasn’t being ‘real’ about current reality, and I hoped that my positive thinking would create the manifesations/end results I wanted…. often they didn’t, for various reasons I won’t go into on this blog, but that brings me to the present moment… NOW, I’m a Positive Real Feeler…. I simply KNOW what resonates, and the future of the earth being destroyed by us does NOT resonate – for me, personally.
I received this information from a version of my future self. The news is as follows:
“My name is Tobin, and I am a 45 year old man. I have three kids and a beautiful wise woman wife… She is my voice, my inspiration, my reason for being. We are twin souls and it is like a dream come true to be alive, together, creating children in this life.
We are in the year AD 60,000 and earth is a magnificent place to be…..
There is fruit which you do not know… not from genetically modifying, but actually by marvelling at the fruit and veg we do love and know, and from that marvelling and adoration, new species came into being.
A heart swell is what creates… when we eat something we love, we speak to the cells in the food, it gives us more nutrients and what we naturally need to be high vibrational, energetic, joyful beings, but also it communicates with future energy of the foods which are coming into being so that earth is constantly looking after us, and creating more and more of what we love.
The dinosaurs were not particularly loved, so it’s not a problem that they died out.
I know that in your day, you are fearing melting of ice caps and so on and so forth. There are photos of beautiful white polar bears stranded, and it evokes fear in the people… especially the powerful manifesters, those with gentle, pure, loving hearts. It is actually the messages, and fears of those people which can do the most damage to your planet. When these sensitive beings are hiding away, or doing whatever they do when they are feeling pain, they transmit that fear to everyone, especially the animals who may be at risk.
You are all one… the animals that are in danger – FEEL that pain, and that fear is a damaging manifestation focus for them.
We know you are often confused and upset, but believe me, it is all working out perfectly.
You have a sacred plant, which is becoming stronger and stronger – Cacao. There is a love energy in this plant, imbued with knowledge, light, wisdom… which really are all the same thing. This plant brings balance to earth beings and actually also heightens their love experiences, and their connection with their higher selves, other dimensional beings and interplanetary beings also.
We are in agreement that your planet is changing, but, what is leaving your planet needs to go elsewhere. What is missing now is what you WOULD love to create. It is essential that more of the focus is made on that.
It might take sometime for everyone to be focussed on the same outcome… but right now, YOU – you who are reading this, what kind of a planet would you like to create?
As you tap into your heart wisdom, you will get more and more clarity about your own life, your legacy, your children’s lives… In the end, everyone wants the same. LOVE. To be in a world of love. The more you start to focus on that… the more that feeling will have a greater percentage focussing on it. I mentioned Cacao… there is a Spirit present in Cacao, and as the indigenous myth says ‘whenever the balance between humans & nature becomes threatened, cacao comes from the rainforest to open people’s hearts & return the planet to a state of harmony’. Cacao is not necessary, but she is a great help in guiding you from your head to your heart, and allowing you to experience the state of Oneness, Flow and Love.
There are many, conspiracy theorists, environmentalists and those who are concerned for the well-being of the earth. There are others who fight for all sorts of ‘worthy’ causes… it is crucial that they shift their focus on to what they DO love, otherwise they are actually fighting a losing battle, and they are actually giving power to the people they are fighting.…
It’s like the power of the consciousness of a human being… you might think you want a life parter, and a wonderful relationship, but if your main belief is that you are unworthy or unlovable… you will not get or maintain this relationship. It is the same with our focus in terms of saving the planet or creating peace… if your predominant belief is that it is impossible to have a world of love and peace, or of having a healthy planet is not likely… so it is.
We come to you in love.
We come to you from a place of infinite bliss…. Imagine your most wonderful days, times, moments…. When you felt like you were full of love, full of joy, full of the essence of bliss… that is our being, that is our way. It IS possible… when you choose those emotions, when you feel them NOW, doing whatever you are doing….. That is the future you are creating for yourself.”
Aho my loves
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I have learned that the power to create our future, our new world is in the highs, of the vibrations we feel… when we look for evidence of an incredible, love-filled world, that is what we see.
Forgiveness is key too, if someone goes against you, your beliefs, if they’re different to you, if they do or say something negative, you must let it go… release and let go.
I have also learned that being aware of everything that goes on within us is a chance to create… it’s a sign from above and it is a part of our life purpose, and the jigsaw that goes to make up the incredible beauty of our lives.
We all have a part to play in this game of life, and it IS a game, that is what Tobin said… when you read between the lines anyway….we are all in this together and we don’t have to believe another’s point of view, we simply have to be curious.
I hasten to add that it is advantageous to be curious about the experiences, things, life stories which will serve you to live and experience. If you are curious about things you do NOT want to experience then that is what you may manifest.
Energy goes where attention flows, energy flows where attention goes.
Please let me know your viewpoints, and please share! Thank you – SO much love.
What has Rebirth, Renewal and Acclimatising to the New got to do with Easter?
Well, for me, Easter is the real bridge between wintry evenings, and more fun, lighter, warmer, productive days. In the Christian tradition, there is a mourning of the death of Christ on Good Friday, followed by celebration for his resurrection on Easter Sunday.
Easter was originally a time to celebrate Ishtar, the Goddess of fertility and sex believe it or not! The symbols we are all familiar with are bunnies and eggs, and of course the wonderful chocolate, so it kinda fits eh?
As we are all holding and illuminating the Christ Consciousness within, I like to consider the rebirth of Christ as a time to honour our path and our light. It’s a great time to consider what we’d like to let go of, and then allow space for a rebirth into the new. At the bottom of this post I share a wonderful ‘Rebirth’ exercise to do which guides you into YOUR new.
In winter we go into the void, nights get longer, darker, colder and it is a time of hibernation and soul searching. Our energy goes inward, as we dream about the things we’d love to create, then as the energy increases with more sunlight, we can bring those things to the world. The beauty of cycles and seasons.
We are currently in a very powerful window of time astrologically. We know we’re made of stardust which even scientists agree with, so it’s good to be aware of what’s happening skyward.
We’ve just had a pink, full moon eclipse, and we’re about to head into a Cardinal Cross (23rd April), with more eclipses a coming. We’ve got four eclipses this year, and four next year. This is a rare occurrence; it’s actually 100 years since we’ve had four in a year, and after next year, it will be 100 more years! Eclipses are also a restart time…. they support the intention to detox your life, looking at what you can let go of and how you can step up and serve your higher self and the highest good of the planet.
The key to this time is… AWARENESS…. become conscious of everything, slow life down with the aid of some juicy, deep breaths.
Astrologers everywhere are saying that April will be intense, intense, intense. So slow down, breathe, be good to you, and do what makes you feel amazing …. and grounded. Pamper yourself, spend time in nature, most of all be gentle with yourself – especially if you’re feeling fragile, vulnerable, or in any way below par.
Something which I ADORE is watching shooting stars, and of course being silly AND real while wishing on every single one I see.
If you’re in the Northern Hemisphere, we are in a window of time – between 16 – 25 April, (peaking 22/23rd) to see the Lyrids Meteor Shower, which is is an annual occurrence and is considered to be the oldest meteor shower. Another meteor shower usually appears in August, you’ll have to check details of that yourself. Watch out just after nightfall and before dawn for the best viewing opportunities. I always find, just lying down, and holding a relaxed gaze and peripheral vision works best.
Happy Wishing upon many stars!
Death Rebirth Celebration Process
I’d like to share a very powerful shamanic process which I’ve been doing for years, to assist my transition into the new.
This is one of my favourite things to do at Easter… If you haven’t worked with me and been trained in using your intuition, then you can simply do as follows:
1. What is it true for me to let go of?
2. What is it true for me to create?
3. What is the bridge….the next step… or the action to take to create that?
4. And why not… Celebrate – step into the feeling of having created what you love, and feel, live, and BE that vibration.
Simply breathe deeply, and allow the answers to come from a deeper place than the mind.
If you ARE trained in your intuition, use the “Golden Circle” process to gift you with a symbol for each question, and then interpret it in favour of the question. What’s interesting is that, what we logically ‘think’ is true to let go of, or create are never the same as the answers from the intuition.
I love to do question one on Good Friday, and then hang with the tension until Sunday, for questions 2 & 3; it’s beautiful to just sit with it and see what emerges.
I wish you a very blissful, restful, fun Easter.
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