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I just read a post on Facebook by the wonderful Elizabeth Gilbert, author of ‘Eat Pray Love’ which was also a film starring Julia Roberts, and most recently the fabulous ‘Big Magic’.
Her post was a call to women to simply love themselves – ALL of themselves. This is totally my philosophy, and what I work with in sessions with clients – when you love whatever arises, you see the treasure in the tough times, and alchemise them into the next steps on your path to creating everything you love.
Having just spent some time totally confined to bed with the yukky ‘shingles’ – I’m slowly recovering as I integrate all the learnings and gifts I’ve received while ill. I did A LOT of soul searching over the last few weeks and among the realisations was this gem. It’s nothing new to me… but I got it, on a deeper, more profound, juicy level. I am celebrating!
You must love yourself… is this a cliche now?
How do we love ourselves?
Well, here’s Elizabeth Gilbert’s post. She poses a lot of questions, with a lot of gemstone answers!
I hope you enjoy it.
Credit Elizabeth Gilbert
I’m worried about something. I’m worried about how much we hate ourselves.
When I say “we”, I mean modern people in the developed Western world, primarily. And among that population, it is the women who hate themselves most of all — who harm themselves, sabotage themselves, bully themselves, undermine themselves, and speak to themselves in voices of unthinkable cruelty.
Increasingly, I believe that the vast majority of our suffering is a result of this epidemic. And I am CERTAIN that everything you want for your life — everything you want to feel and believe and become — is on the other side of that dark river of self-hatred and self-abuse.
We have to stop this.
I won’t be talking today about the causes of our self-hatred. I don’t want to drift into the easy blame of “the media’s images of women”, or “the patriarchy”, or “the internet” or “the emotional disconnect of the post-industrial world” or even “our fucked up families.” Because you know what? I DON’T KNOW. I’m not smart enough to know what this is all about, or where the self-hatred comes from. I just know that it’s prevalent, it’s contagious, it’s really dangerous, and that we are destroying ourselves with it.
Sharon Salzberg, the great American meditation master, tells a story about meeting the Dalai Lama in 1990. She asked him what he thought about self-hatred, and he replied, “Self-hatred? What is that?”
Seriously. He didn’t know what she was talking about. He kept probing: How could people be taught to hate THEMSELVES?
The room was filled with Western meditators, scientists, pyschologists, and researchers, and over the next hours they tried to explain it to the Dalai Lama — tried to answer his puzzled question of how a person could be taught to hate themself. But he remained puzzled. He said, at the end of it all, “I thought I had a good acquaintance with the mind, but now I feel quite ignorant. I find this very, very strange.”
Unlike the Dalai Lama, I know self-hatred inside and out, you guys. I know self-blame, shame, self-recrimination, and I have certainly experienced rage against my own machine. I know what it feels like to look at every molecule of your being (physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual) and declare: NOT GOOD ENOUGH, KID. And I know that this way lies madness. Madness and pain, and the death of all good things.
I also know this — that the answer is not to become A BETTER PERSON. The answer is not to IMPROVE. The answer is not TO GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. And this is coming from somebody who loves improving, who loves striving, and who is always trying to get her shit together. Look, trying to improve yourself is FINE, if that’s what you’re into. Exercise more, eat better, become more productive, de-clutter your house — whatever. Getting your shit together is very nice. Do all that stuff, if you want to. (I certainly do all that stuff, and I don’t judge it.) But understand this — PEACE WILL NOT BE FOUND THERE. Your house can be so tidy that you could invite Marie Kondo over for dinner with pride, and maybe someday you can achieve rock-hard abs, and maybe someday you could get out debt, and land your dream job, finally stop drinking….and you might STILL hate yourself.
Because the darkness of self-hatred is immune to any worldly accomplishment or success. Achievement does not touch the part of yourself who abuses yourself. The world is filled with highly successful and accomplished people who treat themselves horribly, who talk to themselves savagely, and who abuse themselves terribly. If you could see inside their heads and witness the dreadful conversations going on in there, you would be shocked. You would be shocked, and maybe you would cry. And maybe you would want to take that highly successful and deeply troubled person in your arms and say, “There, there, little small one…there, there…hush, hush…”
Peace will only be found when you can love all the parts of yourself that you have always hated.
I used to think that self-love would only come to me when I had “cleaned up my act” — only when I had gotten rid of all my bad behaviors, only when I had mastered my mind, only when I had driven out all the negative thoughts, only when I had forgiven everyone for everything, only when I had made amends for every mess I had ever caused, only when I could see divinity in everybody, only when I never lost my temper, only when I no longer experienced “bad” emotions like anger, jealousy, resentment, self-pity. In other words, I could not love myself until I had become WORTHY.
Which means…what? Which means: I believed that I could not love myself until I was some kind of polished golden orb of perfection, with an immaculately-controlled mind, a healthy body, and a totally clean record. Someone who would never make another misstep, never speak another unkind word, never be a fuck-up again in any way whatsoever…ever. Then I could love myself.
But who is that? Who is that person I have just described?
That person is nobody. That person is no human being who has ever lived.
And once you realize that, then you realize that we are all this same boat together. That everything you hate about yourself is nothing less than your HUMANITY. Your shared humanity. That you and I, and your neighbor Bob, and your awful sister-in-law, and all those shiny people on Instagram…that we all share the same human dilemma — that we all don’t totally know how to BE, and what to do with ourselves. We all have these strange minds full of incomprehensible thoughts. We all have these untrustworthy hearts that often want forbidden things. We all have these funny ape-like bodies with weird urges. We all have these enormous souls filled with a desperate longing for belonging.
You are no different from me, and I am no different from your neighbor Bob, and your neighbor Bob is no different from your awful sister-in-law, and your awful sister-in-law is no different from all those shiny people on Instagram. There is a massive sense of tenderness that comes over me when I remember that we are all the same in our shared dilemma of how to be a person. We are all in this together. We are a bizarre but beautiful species. And if you believe that human beings need love, and deserve love…then you must someday grow into the belief that YOU also need love and deserve love, and that you must stop being so stingy about giving it to yourself.
You must not think that love is something you give to yourself as a reward, only if you have earned it — like some kind of gold star sticker that you get to put on your homework today if you are good…but maybe not tomorrow, if you fuck up.
You have to give yourself love all the time.
Giving yourself love doesn’t mean that every day is spa day. (Although, hey. If you can swing it…) Giving yourself love doesn’t mean buying yourself fancy presents, or constantly treating yourself, or spoiling yourself. (You are not SEDUCING yourself, remember. You are not trying to get yourself in bed. You are just being kind and loving to yourself.) Giving yourself love doesn’t mean becoming Kanye-like in your insistence that you are the greatest.
You are not the greatest. But you are also not the WORST. And I bet there have been days of your life (maybe years of your life) where all you do is walk around telling yourself that you are the WORST. And I bet that nothing good has ever come out of that way of thinking.
You are not the greatest, and you are not the worst. You are just one of us.
I have tried a radical experiment recently. I call it: THE EXTREME LOVE EXPERIMENT.
Whenever I have a dark thought — a “forbidden” thought, like anger, jealousy, resentment, lust, shame, contempt — I immediately say to myself, “I love the part of you, Liz, who is full of anger right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who is ashamed of yourself right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who can’t stop judging yourself right now.”
or: “I love the part of you who feels weak and helpless right now.”
or: ‘I love the part of you who just had an explicitly violent fantasy about watching that person who is talking loudly on her cellphone suddenly have her head blow up.”
or: “I love the part of you who is still having an argument in your head with a man you haven’t talked to in 15 years.”
or: “I love the part of you who broke your New Year’s resolution on January 4th.”
or: “I love the part of you who believes that she is such a spiritual hypocrite, it’s ridiculous.”
or: “I love the vain/insecure part of you who stands in front of the mirror lifting up the dangly flesh on your neck and wondering if there’s some kind of plastic surgery for that.”
or: “I love the part of you who is jealous of that other novelist for winning that big award.”
I used to try to banish all those parts of myself. Because they were BAD. They were WRONG. They were UNEVOLVED. They were NEGATIVE.
But banishing the parts of myself that I hated has never worked. The more I try to banish them, the stronger they grow. The more I hated these parts of myself, the more they multiplied. It’s like my self-hatred was fertilizer — creating a dark, warm, nourishing environment for all those “bad” thoughts and impulses to grow…and as they grew, they destroyed me.
Now I just say to the dark thought, “I love this part of you”…and the dark thought loses its power.
I understand now that I am not a SELF. I am SELVES. I am thousands of different selves — and all of them are worthy of love.
To say, “I love you,” is the only force strong enough to diffuse darkness.
And here’s the crazy thing — this habit is starting to spread out of me, and I can now do it toward others.
For instance, I now have the capacity to think: “I love the part of my husband who is constantly interrupting me. This is just his weird humanity at play.”
Followed by: “And I love the part of me who gets so freaking irritated about how my husband is constantly interrupting me.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who doesn’t really BELIEVE that I love the part of my husband who is constantly interrupting me.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who is saying that this EXTREME LOVE EXPERIMENT is total bullshit, and it will never work.”
Followed by: “I love the part of me who wonders if I will ever truly love myself.”
And it goes on like that. But I go on, too. I just keep throwing love at everything that comes up…until finally it all gently quiets down.
And it does all finally gently quiet down.
I love all these dark parts of myself not because they are wonderful and adorable and perfect and fantastic, but because they are THERE. My dark bits are with me and they will likely always be with me. Just as your dark parts are with you and will likely always be with you. All that is there needs to be loved.
As they say: “It’s not a bug; it’s a FEATURE.”
Our humanity is not an ERROR. Our crazy thoughts are not MISTAKES. Our scary longings and giant failures and ongoing disasters are not ABERRATIONS.
This is merely what it is to be a person — messy, weird, inconsistent, doubtful. This is how we ARE, and that has to be OK, or else nobody is OK.
We are not some early Dell Computer Operating System, here to be de-bugged. We are not some new product for sale, here to be perfected. The goal is not to become an immaculate golden orb. The goal is to return to a place of kindness, where you can be gentle with yourself and others, no matter what arises. This requires, I think, a friendly sort of loving humor about who you are and who we all are. Why does the Dalai Lama have such a twinkle about him? Because he gets it. He gets that it’s kind of funny, how we are. Even when it’s terrible. The whole thing is…very, very strange. And that’s OK. It’s strange, but it’s sacred.
And I believe there no is gentler or safer place to stand on this earth than in a place where you can say to yourself, “I love every bit of you, you beautiful freak.”
The Buddha said it better, of course. The Buddha said, “You can search the whole world over and never find anyone as deserving of love as yourself.”
In other words: Be good to you, OK?
Please put down the knife you have been holding to your own throat. You don’t deserve that kind of abuse, and it won’t help.
Just try it. Try saying to your scariest bits: “I love this part of you.”
And then say it again to the next part…and the next part…and the next part…and the next part…and ONWARD.
Good luck in there.
Again credited to Elizabeth Gilbert, author, and pretty amazing wise woman.
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“Document the moments you feel most in love with yourself –
What you’re wearing, who you’re around, what you’re doing.
Recreate and repeat”
I am feeling like it’s ‘a day out of time’ – the day which is in between one Mayan calendar and another. I remember my first experience of feeling this way – I had no idea it was a day out of time, but I FELT it… I am feeling it again today.
Nowadays, it is SO rare for me to do a private chocolate ceremony… there was a time when I’d do one almost every day!
I am doing one today, and it feels like SUCH a treat. What’s so funny, is that I was totally sure I’d run out of my Ceremonial Grade Guatemalan (Mayan) chocolate but I just found a little stash, specially for this sacred ceremony 🙂
I’ve felt so ‘in between’ worlds the last few weeks, even though I’ve been spending a lot of time with friends and family visiting – I’ve still felt very ‘dreamlike’. I have a hiatus today… so I’m going into chocolate dream time and my intention is to come out awakened the other side… I have much to tune into. So many choices, so many paths ahead of me…
I am very much looking forward to the experience.
If you are being guided to do yoga, have a ceremony, or do whatever, which you know is great for your wellness, please pay attention. We ARE in a most powerful week astrologically, energetically – as above, so below. Pay heed, be gentle to yourself, and LOVE you!
Thank you for allowing me to share my ‘in between’ state… I set the intention that whatever you do, when you read this, will honour your HIGHEST path, your heart and soul. Honour where YOU are! The energies are gentler now, but still, as with The Spirit of Cacao… they are gentle yet POWERFUL!
If you are aware of your negative beliefs, it is soooo so so so important to focus on the opposite of those ‘normal’ default negative beliefs… I AM WORTHY LOVABLE CAPABLE I AM ENOUGH… etc. etc. etc.
So, whatever your predominant negative belief is about yourself, focus on the things that demonstrate the opposite, look at what you’ve created so far in your life, take that as proof of your Greatness. Be the adorable, loving, compassionate, FUN adult to your inner child.
I love you.
Please share this so that others can also be in this ‘time of no time’ and come out the other side the shining radiant light being that they are in essence.
See you on the other side… let me know how YOUR journey is going.
I will report back the other side, and join me in Ceremony to sample this magical elixir and create YOUR beautiful life.
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The 13 Spiritual Benefits of Chocolate – Cacao Ceremony Time! (haga clic aquí para español).
Do you know that chocolate is actually medicine?
How cool is that?
It is one of the most powerful, gentle facilitators, teachers and guides on the planet – and it is delicious too!
The Ancient Mayans and Aztecs used Chocolate for Spiritual and Ceremonial purposes. In its purest form (unlike much of the chocolate available in the mainstream), it is a powerful assistant for ‘inner work’, creative guidance and so much more.
Read on to discover how this delicious superfood can help you!
The 13 Spiritual Benefits of Chocolate – Cacao Ceremony Time – And Connecting with ‘The Spirit of Cacao’…
13. HEART OPENER
Chocolate opens the heart and allows for a deeper, authentic love based connection with yourself, others, the world and all of life.
12. SHAMANIC JOURNEYING
It promotes powerful journeying and connection with your spiritual wisdom.
11. THERAPY – SOVEREIGN (RATHER THAN CODEPENDENT)
Helps to bring awareness to anything that has been preventing you from creating the life you love.
It aids in the recognition, and release of repetitive patterns
You will become aware of any beliefs and blocks which could prevent you from creating the life you love.
10. CONNECTION WITH HIGHER SELF
Stronger connection with the higher self (intuition, soul, God, Goddess etc.).
This leads to an enhanced connection with your own power and truth; your divinity.
Chocolate is a powerful facilitator allowing you to delve into your pain.
“You gotta feel it to heal it.”
Once you FEEL your pain (sadness, anger, grief etc. etc.), you won’t keep manifesting situations to feel these feelings.
You will live a freer, happier life, without constantly being triggered.
When you release these emotions, it allows more light, love and magic into your life.
This is ‘Heaven on Earth’.
9. EFFECTIVE MEDITATION
Powerful, otherworldly and deep meditation, enabling you to connect with your spiritual nature, accessing the wisdom within.
Meditation is much easier and more beneficial; silencing the mind becomes easy – hence the space for healing occurs.
‘The healing occurs in the stillness.’
It calms the left brain chatter, and allows us to delve more into that ‘no mind’ space of bliss.
8. ‘GET’ ANY LEARNINGS IN YOUR ENTIRE BEING… NOT JUST YOUR HEAD
Profound embodiment of new learnings. This allows you to feel in your body what you know in your head. The teachings you might already be aware of are ‘understood‘, you suddenly ‘get‘ them on a deeper level.
For instance, the teaching that we are all love, and love is all there is.
You might logically know this, and want to believe it and live it, but you wonder HOW to embody it?
Is it true?
Chocolate aids the pathway to living and FEELING this love, this bliss, the state of being which IS FLOW, ONENESS and LOVE…..
Indigenous Costa Rican Shaman
7. A JOURNEY TO ONENESS LOVE ENLIGHTENMENT
Feelings of oneness, enlightenment and ecstasy.
This results in more love in your life, leading to more effective manifestation and a more powerful, familiar connection with your magnificence and spiritual capacities.
When you access this state; bliss, love, the vortex, the ‘zone’, flow, whatever you want to call it, you can manifest what you love.
You also enter into the state where what you love, comes to you!
Your lover, clients, abundance, vibrant health – you name it.
6. MALE FEMALE ENERGY BALANCE WITHIN
More enhanced, balanced, connected male & female energy.
Male and female energies are within everyone.
When these energies are in balance, you live a harmonious life magnetising all you love TO you.
This integration also leads to enhanced effectiveness as the divine creator and super manifesting machine that you are, in essence.
The balance of male and female energies allows you to receive inspiration (feminine energy) AND act on it (masculine energy).
Chocolate is the ONLY food which
Connects your left brain & your right brain!!!
5. ENHANCED CREATIVITY
Access to the ‘one mind’ or unity consciousness allowing the connection with creative ideas.
You enter a zone where you are receiving ‘aha’ moments, inspiration, ideas. With the enhanced male/female balance, these are made manifest….
4. IMPROVED YOGA, CHI KUNG AND SIMILAR PRACTICES
More effective, deeper, profound, easier yoga and chi kung practice.
Your practice improves on every level; physical, mental, spiritual, emotional.
This is probably the case with other practices too (aikido, kick boxing etc.) but I have yet to try other – so let me know!
3. CONNECTION TO HIGHER DIMENSIONS
A deeper, stronger connection with ‘the light’, the new, higher dimensions, raising your vibration.
Posing with a Chocolate Tree and friend in Costa Rica
2. CAREER GUIDANCE – CROSSROADS CLARITY
More clarity, ideas and connection with your life purpose.
Clarity on your talents, skills and how you are here to serve – you easily connect with your creative abilities; writing, painting, dancing, music or whatever floats your boat really.
Flow is the one thing that those who are successful in business experience. Whether ‘spiritual’ or not. From this state creation, and abundance…. FLOWS!
1. FUN – The Reason We Are Here!
Chocolate is a gentle, powerful feminine force. It is the force for the new world. In fact ‘power’ is a better word than ‘force’.
By surrendering to the essence and energy of Chocolate, you can step into the higher dimensions. It facilitates a deep Shamanic experience of ‘being in the world but not of it’ or ‘having a foot in both worlds’.
You become the Ascended Master on earth… bringing Heaven TO Earth. It shows you how you can shift your perception so life can be fun.
That is what we are here for, to have fun!
This was the learning I got when I lived in Hawaii and I swam with the wild dolphins almost every day. They kept telling me (telepathically), FUN FUN FUN. However, it took me about 5 years to master the teaching… in fact I’m still getting my head around it.
We’re here to have fun, if it’s not fun, don’t do it, or MAKE IT FUN!
Is Chocolate A Drug?
Well, if you think that tobacco, coffee and alcohol are drugs, then I guess so.
Chocolate wasn’t popular as a psychoactive in the 60’s because it’s not actually psychedelic (although many experience visions and powerful journeys in my ceremonies).
It is is gaining a lot of popularity now, because of all the shifts on the planet and people recognise its power.
We have come to a tipping point. As chocolate connects you with your heart, it also connects you with something bigger…. God, the Universe, Spirit, your higher self… whatever you want to call it.
It’s the magical space you enter when you appreciate a phenomenal sunset… before the mind chips in and goes;
‘Oooheee – look, she’s having one of ‘those’ experiences!’ Lol..
Do you know what I mean?
Anyway, I digress, I discovered this magic a few years ago on a trip round the world and it totally changed my life. Below, I share my journey and 13 Spiritual benefits of using chocolate for ceremonial and spiritual purposes.
Most of the chocolate available in the marketplace is full of sugar and additives. The beans are often hybridised, or low quality, so it doesn’t have a powerful effect. The chocolate that I work with facilitates a deeper journey, and intense feelings of BLISS.
Messages From The Dolphins (the most intelligent of mammals).
The messages that the dolphins deliver, and the basis of Hawaiian Shamanism… It’s all about FUN, LOVE, BREATHING (consciously) and CONNECTION 🙂 I spent many months swimming with wild dolphins in Hawaii, they communicated with me daily, and eventually we had a very sovereign relationship (once I stopped depending on them for healing lol). They continually reminded me:
BREATHE … HAVE FUN … LOVE … CONNECT … FLOW!
The importance of these messages has been communicated to me recently in my own work and through witnessing what others gain in ceremonies and one to one sessions. It facilitates the clearing of deep psychological, emotional, and spiritual blocks. It allows one to get to the root of any emotion or even any physical ailment, to discover why they have it and in turn feeling the emotion related to it; subsequently healing the original dis-ease and releasing it.
The number thirteen is a powerful number; the number of the Goddess. During the patriarchy, we were led to believe that 13 is unlucky as it is the number attributed to the power – the gentle power of the feminine.
When the patriarchy came to the fore, it was ruled as ‘unlucky’ because they wanted us to fear the power of the Goddess and women in general. It represents the new world of love and peace which is being created right now.
Back Story – How I discovered the magical, spiritual, medicinal qualities of chocolate!
I arrived in Guatemala at 11.11 on 11/11/12 feeling VERY curious, and a little afraid.
It was very synchronistic that I landed at those times, the flight was delayed and as I flew in, I was greeted not only by these (very significant) numbers but also by 4/5 bolts of lightning – at eye level!
This was a sure sign that this was probably not going to be an ordinary adventure!!
The numbers have many meanings (click here to check them out).
My visit was also timed with the important dates which would occur the month after (12/12/12 and 21/12/12), the dates famed as being the end of the Mayan calendar, time as we know it, and a 26,00 year cycle. This was much celebrated and talked about worldwide, with some even thinking the world would end on 21 December 2012! What resonated for me, was that it would be the end of the world … as we know it, and the beginning of a new one. The world of LOVE…
After arriving in Guatemala and spending some time in Antigua, a really beautiful city, and World Heritage centre, intuition, and a very dear friend guided me to buy a ticket to Lake Atitlan. I did so, and travelled the very next day. I arrived in San Marcos, a haven of healing portals in the Highlands of Guatemala. I still felt the fear. I had no idea why I was there and as I acknowledged my fear, and total submersion into the unknown, it was soon transmuted after I asked my favourite question; ‘What would I love?’ I actually can’t remember my answer, but I have a few ideas. Anyway, soon after (minutes), I met a wonderful lady who told me about ‘The Chocolate Shaman’ and his ceremonies. That was day one in San Marcos, day two I attended my first ceremony!
I had no idea about the magical properties of chocolate and that the Ancient Mayans and Aztecs used it for Spiritual and Ceremonial purposes. People from all over the world gathered in circle, to drink cacao, and drop from their head to their heart. They experienced healing, while having fun and journeyed deep within to a place where all their answers lay.
The Chocolate Shaman initially connected with the Spirit of Cacao nearly 10 years ago. She told him that Cacao would be ‘The Food for the Shift’. This started his journey of discovery, and ended up with him using Chocolate in its purest form as a medicine, to open others hearts, and return people to their innate power & magnificence.
I spent some months going to Ceremonies and learning about chocolate and surrendering to the ‘stuff” that I needed to let go of. It was totally life-transforming for me, and the path that I ‘thought’ I was going to take from then on, totally changed. I chose to add Sacred Chocolate to my Shaman’s Toolbag and hold ceremonies – well actually it was all totally intuitively guided. I invited a friend to come to my first one – and I loved it. From then on, people asked me to hold them, they got the people to come, they got the venues, all I needed to do was turn up! Now THAT is flow!
The Spirit of Cacao spoke to me – gently, yet powerfully and showed me this was my true path. In fact when I did a Shamanic Journey before I went to Guatemala, I had a vision of myself running what seemed to be Ayahuasca ceremonies – and I was a little surprised. As much as I respect Aya, and I have attended ceremonies it did not resonate as my path. Of course, it wasn’t long before I realised the similarities in a Cacao Ceremony and an Ayahuasca Ceremony. You sit in circle, drink an elixir and have a powerful, (fun with Chocolate), profound experience. The difference being that chocolate will show you the door, it will not push you through. Intention is the key …
I was honoured to have been invited by The Spirit of Cacao to share her magic – her gentle, yet powerful guiding ways all over the planet. Since then, I have continued to build a strong connection with The Spirit of Cacao as the powerful teacher, facilitator and guide that she is.
“Chocolate; The Food For The Shift!”
My experiences since then confirm that Chocolate truly IS the food for the shift.
I have seen so many transformations, and people discovering their purpose, joy, confidence and walking the path their soul called them to take. In my ceremonies I use my Healing, Intuitive Coaching & Shamanic tools from a 16 year professional adventure into the unknown, raising the mists of my own beliefs and assumptions and becoming more of who I was born to be. I’ve been creating more and more of the life I love. Through that, I’ve been guiding others so that they not only create a life THEY love, but also go on to teach others to do so too. Sharing the magical secrets of alchemy and the elixirs of life worldwide!
“We must be the change we wish to see.”
The use of Chocolate has taken my work and the results in others lives to another level. It creates a beautiful cauldron of love, allowing what needs to be released to transmute – thus allowing more room for extra doses of light, love and magic.
During Chocolate Ceremonies, people connect with deep feelings of bliss, love and joy – their FLOW!
They sometimes journey through a variety of emotions which are stuck – these may have caused illness, repetitive patterns, conflict, confusion, lack of abundance, love and basic lack of joy and fulfilment in their lives. They gain deep realisations about their purpose, the meaning of life and the direction their soul is calling them to take.
There’s often wondrous ‘aha’ moments on why certain things have been a perceived ‘problem’ and how, in fact, now they can see that it’s their greatest gift. With this knowledge, the journey forward is more empowered without the old ‘story’ but with a renewed awareness of the gifts they’ve been granted, even through the story! This fresh start empowers them to step into their power in a way they’ve never before experienced (often with them using Chocolate in their work).
The planet is changing, WE are changing and there’s a need for a great number of teachers to become guides for the rest of the planet. There are a lot of pain bodies to be soothed and transmuted, and I’m working with the next wave of teachers. As Eckhart Tolle said, dealing with the pain body is one of the most important, and much needed jobs of the current years.
Chocolate The Superfood
Apart from the fact that Chocolate is a magical medicine, it also has a lot of positive health benefits. It is a superfood, it’s delicious and it’s also an aphrodisiac!
Since my discovery about the magical uses for Chocolate I journeyed to Hawaii & Canada where I held Ceremony, but I also journeyed to Costa Rica and I met tribes who still use Chocolate for these purposes. They also use it for initiations for new born babies, teenagers and pregnant women.
The Spirit of Cacao was one of the most revered of the ancient Mayan Deities. They called Cacao ‘The water that runs through the heart’. Chocolate is a Sacred, Medicinal, Psychoactive, Plant and Theobroma or cacao actually means “Food of the Gods”.
I hope you enjoyed this piece.
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[Update… December 27, 2014, see bottom of post for a GREAT YouTube piece Celebrities talk “The Law of Attraction]
As I slowly, gleefully sip a ceremonial does of cacao, with tingles all over my body from a powerful download of wisdom and guidance, I share some magic with you.
Life is good. Life is good, because of the learnings. Those learnings that continually come from some really, really painful, tough times and clearing my ‘stuff’; i.e my negative emotions and beliefs.
We’re all on an interesting journey as we come into our power and connect with our divinity (blog on what “A Woman in Our Power” is click here). As we experience tough times, it’s sooo important to keep that in mind – that we are Divine Magnificent Beings, or spiritual beings having a human experience.
Anyway, I digress; I’m writing about the Law of Attraction right? What’s the LoA got to do with tough times? Well, when we move through our tough times, we get light infusions (light = wisdom), so as we learn, and grow, we become lighter. We attract more of what we love. We do this by simply FEELING the emotions, whatever they might be. That clears them, leaving us to manifest what we love.
There’s often a lot of fear around actually being real and feeling our stuff; fear, pain, anger and other emotions.
Sunset, Kailua Kona, Hawaii
The Law of Attraction made big news nearly ten years ago when the movie ‘The Secret’ was launched. I remember watching it and jumping & dancing around my home celebrating at the message it conveyed. My partner had been telling me about all this magic for years; how your thoughts and words create your reality. I must admit, there was a part of me that doubted him, could it really be that simple, and how does it work? I wondered.
When I watched the film I truly celebrated – I was SO happy it was true and this information was now in the mainstream.
As great as ‘The Secret’ was though, it also brought up a lot of confusion, doubt and fear. Many people thought that you had to feel amazing all the time. They thought that if you felt any negative emotions, you would attract negativity.
This is not true. It’s SO important to bear this in mind as we create the new paradigm. We MUST feel our feelings to clear them. Alchemise them. Otherwise they’re lurking around under the surface in your subconscious creating again, what you don’t love.
Your Magnificence comes from those feelings, as does enlightenment. There’s no quick route to a blissful life, it’s the journey and it’s through continually allowing yourself to feel your feelings that you get to bliss. I don’t suggest you wallow in them, just be real and allow yourself to feel them. Neither do I recommend drowning them with things like alcohol, drugs, smoking and busy-ness, but just start being conscious of them, allow.
As Joseph Campbell says;
‘Pain is inherent,
Suffering is optional.’
There’s SUCH peace underneath those feelings if you simply allow yourself to sit with them, and I can’t speak highly enough of the Attitude of Gratitude….
“Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life.
It turns what we have into enough, and more.
It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity.
It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.
Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today,
And creates a vision for tomorrow.” Melody Beattie
If you look at my blog Beliefs & The Power of The Subconscious Mind you’ll see that it’s the subconscious that creates our reality. So if our negative emotions are tucked away there, if we’re ignoring them, or we’re afraid to simply FEEL them, we create more situations where we HAVE to feel them. For instance the same relationship patterns with partners, bosses, etc. etc. That’s why those that push our buttons are our best teachers.
As one of my Shamanic teacher used to say; ‘There’s nothing to fear, but fear itself’. When we fear something, we’re giving our power away, we give power to whatever we fear… therefore that’s what we manifest (see below for many celebrities’ view on this.) When we shift the fear, we have all that power we’ve been channelling (subconsciously) into the fear, we take the hand of fear, and walk with it… shifting the power towards what we love, walking the path our soul is calling us to take… in love.
We’re all Masters of the Law of Attraction, because we’re constantly creating.
Are you creating what you love OR what you don’t love? Look at your life now for instant feedback. It’s a reflection of your past thoughts. We’re all manifesting things we DON’T want as well as those we DO want.
When you clear your negative emotions, you have room for the juicy high vibrations to create what you DO love.
The Law of Clarity
When you’re clear of the negative emotions (anger, frustration, grief, sadness etc.) that recreate unwanted situations and patterns in your life, you’re a clear vessel. You vibrate with feelings of joy, love, happiness, peace and THEN you create that magic in your life, attracting what you love.
Use gratitude for where you are now and what you have; this is the bridge to even more magical outcomes. Let me know how you get on with The Law of Clarity and please feel free to share this post.
I love you!
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December 27, 2014 – Watch this 8 min YouTube video Celebrities Talk ‘The Law of Attraction” click here…
With Richard Gere, Denzel Washington, Matt Damon & Jim Carrey
They seem to be talking about ‘The Law of Clarity’.. Enjoy creating lovelies, and feel free to share this blog on your social networks and with friends. Aloha x
Remember your power!
In any moment, in any situation, you have the power of choice.
Choose who you spend time with.
Choose how you feel.
Choose your dreams.
Choose your state of being.
Choose what action to take.
Choose how you interpret anything.
Choose whether, or how you react to someone or a situation.
The more you choose to be in love, the more you are being the change you wish to see in the world.
This DOES mean speaking your truth, and being courageous enough to be real with others.
In fact, it’s all about being real; from the motivation of love, rather than fear.
Good luck & I love you!
I’m so very excited because this is…
The first day of the life I choose…
It’s also the first day I’m using the tools from a wonderful course called ‘Blogging from the Heart’ with Susannah Conway. I LOVE writing, but I have a juicy little inner critic who always asks me ‘is this the way it’s meant to be done?’ About my inner gremlin; after spending most of my life not conscious of it, then conscious, then berating it, now I love it, we’re friends and I love its little tricks 🙂 As I’ve become conscious of it, I’ve taken the power out of its negativity. I LOVE blogging because there’s actually no ‘right way’ to do it. We’re all unique, and blogging gives us a chance to shine and share our ways; there is no right or wrong.
I was drawn to this course because I know that when I speak from the heart it’s truthful communication sometimes with joy, sadness, passion and raw vulnerablity. At least now, it’s becoming clear to me that that’s my current focus.
So what would I like to share today?
I’d like to offer a gentle stroke of your forehead. Y’know, we’re experiencing a time on this planet like never before. Everything is shifting and changing. What isn’t of light, beauty and love is coming up to be released.
Please be gentle with yourself dear soul, and remember the journey we’re on is like a spiral.
Old patterns WILL come up, but like the spiral of a fern unfurling its fronds towards the light, the spiral gets less and less until all of the fern is in the light. When you’re in a dark place, know that it’s all part of the process of showing your beauty to the sun and welcome it in. Darkness doesn’t exist in the sunshine, so shine, baby shine!
I love you Divine Wonder Full Being 😉
Love, light & magic,
Gerri (Geraldine) McMahon
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Like fertile soil, the subconscious takes everything in; it doesn’t discriminate in terms of what’s good or bad; everything goes in! I’ve always been intrigued by the power and capacity of the subconscious. It takes in 20 million bits of information every second, whereas the conscious mind can only process 40 bits of information a second. The subconscious can process 500 thousand times more than the conscious mind!
It would drive you crazy if everything was consciously experienced. What I find fascinating is that one of the filters consists of your beliefs and assumptions. Being aware of our beliefs is really important because they colour our world. If we’re subconsciously focused on a negative belief like ‘I’m powerless’, or ‘I’m not good enough’, that’s what we expect and that’s what shows up in our world because focus creates reality. Because the subconscious remembers everything; hypnotists and shamanic pracitioners can access it to clear deep problems, blocks, patterns and addictions. The root of every problem is held there; all of your memories; even down to the colour of the curtains in your bedroom when you were 2 years old (which hopefully wasn’t too much of a problem) is stored therein! 🙂
I’d like to share an example of a client, I have her permission, but let’s call her Rebecca anyway. She wanted to get to the root of her lack of success in relationships and the deep pain she constantly felt when she got close to someone. During a ‘Soul Discovery’ process we remembered an incident when she was 3 and she witnessed her mother and father having an argument after which her father left the house. She ‘made up’ that the row was directly related to her (when we’re children we believe the entire world revolves around us and everything relates to us). She believed that her father had rejected and abandoned her which resulted in her having the belief of being unworthy and unlovable; her assumption was that she’d be abandoned and rejected by the masculine.
Consequently, this is what happened over and over in her life. Either she’d attract men who would reject and abandon her, she’d believe so much that it was going to happen that in the end it did, or even when it wasn’t happening she believed that she was being abandoned and rejected. This had happened over and over again with men in her life. You see this is actually a gift, because those we love WILL push our buttons so we grow and learn and release the memory. This is especially the case with relationships which are forming now; the ‘new paradigm’ relationships.
We can’t create have a sovereign relationship with our old baggage and old world ways of being. This doesn’t mean we have to be perfect, but the old destructive patterns of control, blame, manipulation etc. are being gently (and sometimes not so gently lol) washed away. We’re been given the opportunity to see that whatever is showing up in our reality has to do with US and no one else.
So during this very powerful, deep process we explored this incident from the perspective of her higher self (her soul or the spiritual aspect of her). She realised that the argument between her parents was nothing to do with her. It was a random disagreement and her father had actually just left the house for a few hours to prevent the row from escalating. This gave her mother time to get out of her ‘pain body’ (to use an Eckhart Tolle phrase) and calm down. What dawned on Rebecca was that her mother and father loved each other deeply, but they weren’t very good at feeling it and expressing it. It was almost as if arguing was their unconscious way of ‘trying’ to connect and get love from the other. This pattern is showing up a lot in my sessions over the last few years, our parents inability to express love which leads to all sorts of chaos.
Rebecca had had an awareness of her beliefs and patterns before this session, but seeing it from the higher perspective allowed her to feel deep sadness at having held onto the belief for so long, this was then transmuted into love. With that awareness she was able to really feel it on the physical level. She could literally feel, in her body how she had continually created feelings of rejection and abandonment. Before she’d just been aware of it in her head, but she got it on a deep, cellular level. Once she had this realization, it stopped the pattern, because it was all made up. She could also see how it was all divinely planned so she could learn this lesson. Rebecca is now in a wonderful, sovereign relationship with the man of her dreams and coaches others. This man may at some point abandon or reject her (before even if her partner went away for a day she’d feel deep pain, rejection & abandonment), but now, she doesn’t have the same buttons, so she won’t react and subsequently feel the pain she felt before.
I think I know my pattern, now what?
Having an awareness of your beliefs and assumptions is really important because that allows you to take the power out of them. We attract our reality depending on what we’re making up. I don’t recommend trying to change your beliefs. When we try to change our beliefs, the focus is still on them. For instance, someone with an ‘I’m not good enough’ belief might be a perpetual student, or a high flyer to try and prove that they ARE good enough. By trying to change that belief, the focus is still on the belief so they try and try, and still they feel ‘not good enough’. It’s like the flowerbed, we’re still focusing on the weeds and giving them energy.
Where’s The Power?
If you use the example of shareholders in a company, if you’ve got 51% of the shares, you’ve got power in the company. The same with our focus, if 51% (or more) of your focus is on a belief, then that’s got the power and you manifest the belief, rather than what you love.
I used to use affirmations for years but the more I said “I love and approve of myself” or words to that effect I was actually still focusing on being unworthy and of not loving myself so I’d end up totally depressed! You don’t see Richard Branson or the like saying ‘Each and every day I’m getting better and better’, he just does! I’d also like to add here that Richard’s favourite pastime is daydreaming, he doesn’t just dream though, he takes action on his dreams (rather than on his beliefs). His power and focus are not on his beliefs.
This is the key… it’s what you take ACTION on that creates your reality, if you take action after your thoughts of ‘I’m not worthy’ then that’s what you manifest………
The Key Is….. CREATE!
Focus your attention on a higher vibration and CREATE, CREATE, CREATE what you love! Focus on your life purpose. When you’re doing what you love, this automatically results in making a difference in the world. Whether you’re an artist, a teacher, a therapist or whatever, when you’re doing what you love, you’re focusing on a higher structure, you’re creating and your focus is on your heart; your treasure. Rather than seeking outside of you like the character in ‘The Alchemist’ you realise that your treasure is within.
Even More Magic
Something magical happens when you’re not trying to change your belief and you’re focussing on creating what you love, fulfilling your life purpose. You realise you ARE powerful, you are capable; lovable and worthy of everything you love. Whatever your belief was, you realise it’s absolute codswollop, it’s sooo not true! It takes will to focus on what you would love, the higher and lower vibrations are always competing but the highest vibration will always win. When you’re in service to a higher purpose, the higher wins. It takes will to stay focussed on what you’d love, rather than your beliefs. It’s like going to the gym, you don’t go once and think that’s it for the rest of your life, it’s like a muscle, it takes practice and exercising it over and over again.
I love you, you delicious, worthy wonderful human being 😉
How many times have I said this recently ‘these are very powerful times’….
It seems like everyone around me seems to be shifting something or other; whether on a physical or emotional level. I remember a Shamanic teacher telling me years ago when I was a little more cynical than I am now, that everything that manifests on the physical has an emotional reason behind it. I believe this wholeheartedly now! This is why it’s such an important time to be gentle with ourselves. If you feel like resting, or you’re meant to be doing something and it simply doesn’t resonate, don’t do it! Follow your heart is the most important thing to do at the moment (as always)!
Often it’s not the area that usually creates challenges that’s coming up now, it’s a completely new area. It’s like we’ve got a testing portal for the next few days to use the magic tools we know work on whatever we’re dealing with.
What are the tools that work?
Well, its different for everyone but what’s always worked for me and what seems to be working for clients and friends are:
* Embracing whatever we perceive as our ‘negative’ stuff
* Stop needing to know i.e. SURRENDER (meditation helps with this)
* Let go, allow the bigger vision to unfold
* Sleep when needed
* Have faith in your vision (and expand on it)!
* Have FUN!
What’s apparent is that the decks are being cleared so that there’s room for the life we haven’t even dreamt of to manifest. Often we’re so stuck on how we THINK things should unfold that we get in the way of the bigger dream. This is apparent more now than ever as the dimension we’ve been operating in shifts. This new dimension we’re moving into is to do with our hearts, love and how we perceive things. It’s like we’re all going through a big detox, letting go of old beliefs, ways of operating and stuff that doesn’t bring us happiness!
What I’m seeing when I give readings is that whatever is/has been causing people concern, worries pain etc. has been perfectly orchestrated so that they learn lessons. Then they can feel a new level of humanness, humility, self love and joy. Sometimes this is just a glimpse or a little window of a vision into their new life. This gives way to the birth a new, brighter, clearer, new world which is beyond anything we have even dreamt of.
Unless the previous pain worry strife or whatever had occurred it wouldn’t have allowed them to lay the foundations for what is now being created.
As we’ve been shifting over the past few years EVERYONE has been saying there’s a divine plan in action, I’ve heard this so many times. Of course this could have been my perception but I’ve always heard a level of hope, a tiny amount of concern but a large amount of grounded hearty excitement when people have said this.
This is what we need to hold onto as we proceed to creating more and more of our new world of love; grounded hearty excitement because I now know for sure that there IS a divine plan unfolding. I am certain of this, co created by us the Divine Creative Beings that we are.
That’s why it’s sooo important to do the things that nourish your soul. After all, it’s our soul which is leading the way!
Bliss Be With You 😉
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AFTERWORD TO READERS: What are your questions about the new world paradigm, health, well being and doing work you love?
Please let me know in the comments section below. Please let me know what you’d love me to write about. I’d also love to know what works for you as you create the life you love.
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Love, gratitude, magic & love,
Gerri (Geraldine) McMahon
Greetings from paradise! My American visa time ran out, luckily synchronized with a fascination with island fever, which I duly caught. I bid farewell to Hawaii, and as I climbed the steps of the plane a phoenix appeared (literally) on every step to bid me farewell. I have no idea what the words ‘Phoenix’ on the steps of the plane were all about, but it was POWERFUL and much needed symbolism for me as I left the island of the fire Goddess Pele… walking up to another rebirth.
Next step Costa Rica – the only place on the planet, that my intuition gave me the thumbs up for my next adventure (thank you sis star M for tuning in with me sooo beautifully & accurately)! I allow my intuition to guide me every step of the way in my life, but when it comes to a big decision like this, when I have nooo idea what country is calling me next on this adventure, I tune in with my coach or a friend who has done the same intuitive training as me. Again, it was brilliant guidance…
Shaman preparing Chocolate drink for ceremony. Photo taken in the Gold Museum, San Jose. Cacao was one of the most valuable currencies to the ancient Aztecs.
My ego has been having a field day because it wanted to know the whys, hows and whereabouts of my plans (of which there were none). Since I arrived in Costa Rica my intuition has been laying trails of ‘synchromagic’ which is resulting in a really beautiful time.
I was intuitively guided to Guatemala last year, followed by LA and then Hawaii and I had a spectacular time in all those places.
I’ve been learning lots about magical Cacao. I’ve been visiting local farms and museums, learning about the production of Cacao and its importance on many levels going back several generations. I’ve made new friends, met up with old friends (who I didn’t even know were in Costa Rica) and I even have a vague idea of my future plans.
My mind (ego) still tries to find things to get its teeth into and worry about and at times I still find myself thinking that maybe my new location isn’t conducive to a smooth-running, successful business… of course, that’s codswollop, as my current reality shows me. 🙂 Always check into your current reality, it is perfect feedback of your focus! Luckily for me, I keep attracting new wonderful clients, and business partners.
“The size of our imagination is the only thing which can limit us… dream BIG!” Gerri McMahon
You Gotta Love Your Shadow
I’ve also come to a point where I’m integrating a few months of intense growth (thanks to my wonderful sis star pointing this out); if not a lifetime’s worth (lol)! I feel like SUCH a changed lady.
In my most recent blog I shared how repeated patterns had been coming up and I’d been experiencing really deep pain. This pain has come up in all my close relationships with men I’ve had deep heart connections with. With the use of Cacao I was able to shine the light on my shadow, become aware of my patterns and lack of self love which allowed me to let in sooo much more light and love as I release the shadow, darkness, density or whatever you’d like to call it. It’s also allowed me to love myself even more.
The shadow is not something to be afraid of, it’s simply the part of us we’re unaware of, what we haven’t seen, what we haven’t shone the light on. Until we DO shine the light on it it will cause us pain & grief in our lives.
Worrying is a waste of our imagination, if you’d like to create a new world of love, YOUR new life of bliss, IMAGINE it!
I feel so grateful as I bask in the afterglow of my most recent spiral of learning.
Not only did I learn LOADS which I’m sharing with others, but I don’t feel like I’ve EVER been so much in love with myself… This is attracting some very juicy life experiences. I keep saying this, but when we clear our internal world, our external world shifts to meet that. It’s NEVER about the other person or external circumstances. Gandhi knew the importance of this, he said; “We must be the change we wish to see in the world”.
What I’ve found recently from this experience and working with clients is that, underneath it all it’s our inner child that needs love and attention. We can do this by imagining him/her, letting an age come automatically, embracing the little one and checking in and chatting with them. I do feel that our ego is simply our little inner child who needs love and attention.
Our negative beliefs can create a reality we don’t love. When I work with clients this is something we focus on. It’s really important to be aware of our beliefs as they can create a reality which doesn’t serve us. When I bring clients to a realization about their beliefs, I feel like a midwife taking them through the birth canal to rebirth. Even though it only takes a few moments, it can be an intense process, but powerful when we see how a belief like ‘I’m not worthy of love’ can create that. It’s not encouraged to look at this stuff, especially in some ‘new agey’ circles. We’re told that we’ve got to stay on a high vibration and not think negatively. I strongly disagree with this because ‘attention goes where energy flows’, so even if we’re desperately trying to ignore our negative thoughts and our ‘stuff’, where’s the energy? It’s still subconsciously focused on what we’re avoiding! So, by facing up to it, by SEEING, with awareness what’s going on, we free up that energy. Then we can focus on what we’d love to create and create that! Otherwise, with the focus on the belief that shows up!
As we’re creating the new world, we are in a portal where we have the opportunity to clear our ‘stuff’. In fact it’s imperative we do so as we’re moving into a time of powerful manifestation; a new world of light and love. We need to clear our beliefs and patterns so that we CAN manifest what we love.
This is what I LOVE about my current adventure, no sooner do I have a (light) thought about something I wish for and it manifests! It’s actually comedy, I do feel like I’m living a life totally created by me and that thank goodness all the work I’ve done on myself is paying off. I decided to treat my life like an adventure a few years ago and see if this s**t works… (the ‘Soul Discovery’ modalities I teach). I’m glad to say it does, and very beautifully too!
I love you!
Happy Soul Discovering!
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