I must share an incredible vision I had this morning as I tuned into my ‘Land of Plenty’.
The Land of Plenty is a place in our consciousness where everything our heart loves has already manifested. It’s a Native American technique which allows you to leave your ego behind and see with the eyes of innocence everything which is true for you to create in your life. These things normally lie hidden behind the mists of our thoughts, beliefs and assumptions. In your Land of Plenty you get clarity on the path your soul is calling you to take and you can choose to consciously create what is true for you, guided by your intuition.
So, I tuned into one of the choices I have around my life purpose; ‘I choose the end result of sharing my Shamanic wisdom and humor every week through my events & writing.’
One of the realizations I had was the perfection of me and my path. I realised that I already AM the butterfly; I have transformed. My ego, however has been making me believe that I’m still the caterpillar! I CAN fly and my DNA has already changed. I already am the new paradigm Goddess of Love (tongue slightly in cheek as I say that).
I’ve been doing quite a lot of work on myself recently, realizing and clearing old patterns and I’d temporarily fallen into the ‘OMG there’s A LOT wrong with me zone.’ Of course, I still have some clearing to do, but I have gained a wiser, higher perspective of my patterns and why I’ve been feeling pain.
I’ve had a beautiful connection with a man who totally tapped into my biggest wound… Our pain is created when we are children, and this originated when I was 6 when my dad died, yet the news was hidden from me (bla de bla, there’s a lot more ‘story’ but it’s unnecessary to share it). Anyway, this has been a great source of pain throughout my life, bringing up trust issues, abandonment, etc. I buried the pain for most of my life and it only started to come out in my closest relationships years later as I slowly peeled away the layers around my heart for healing.
As I’ve alchemized this pain over the years, it’s also been the source of my greatest treasure. I wouldn’t have the life purpose I have and which I ADORE if it wasn’t for it. I wouldn’t have a big juicy, vulnerable, yet strong heart either. Nor my wisdom, humor and knowledge!
When this ‘wound’ was reactivated, I totally went into blame and anger and all the other stuff. With the wisdom of hindsight, I realized that it’s pretty much nothing to do with anyone apart from me; in fact he was doing me a service. I was totally conscious of my ‘wound’ and how it was creating pain with this connection; it goes without saying that those we love WILL push our buttons, they’re the ones we let into our hearts and all our walls and our barriers come down! What I failed to realize for a while was that my reactions and pain was the same old, same old I’ve been feeling for a long time when I let someone into my heart. I realized that I had a choice, to simply feel it intensely and deeply, then to allow myself to step out of it.
These are times of great change and those who ‘push our buttons’ are doing us a great service as they’re showing us what needs healing. These are agreements we had before this lifetime; it’s such a gift that these people are doing their jobs so well (lol), so that we we move more and more into the dream of light, the lighter, higher vibrations we can leave this stuff behind… at last!
Does this give you a chance to reevaluate some difficult connections you might have? Perhaps when you dive deep into it or into the feelings that come up, you’ll recognize them from the past? Are you the common denominator here? Is it time to let go of this pattern?
I believe that when we feel a ‘negative’ emotion for more than a few seconds it has nothing to do with the current situation, it’s simply tapping into a memory from our childhood which needs healing.
I feel very lucky that this pattern came up again. Like a caterpillar slooowly coming out of its cocoon I saw the gift as I learned to disassociate from the story and the feelings, heal and change my perspective.
When this happens again I’ll know to step back and simply observe, the red flag being triggered simply won’t require me to react. Even if I do feel pain, I won’t judge myself for it, but in time, even the pain will disappear, in fact it might have already gone!
I’ve known for a while that whenever I feel pain, or experience conflict, it’s never to do with anyone outside of me… it’s all to do with me. Even with this knowledge, I was still getting triggered, but now I feel like I have the freedom to step out of the negative loop and simply observe. This is a powerful place, a place of freedom and a space of knowing that in any one moment I can choose how I feel, react, and ultimately what I create.
This experience has opened my heart so much. I have a lot of one to one clients at the moment and I’m generally holding an event every week; as soon as I had this breakthrough I was able to serve others and allow them to access their own wisdom in a similar way, often through connecting with their inner child. I feel like this learning will guide others more and more into their vulnerability; their hearts so that we can co-create a juicy new world of love!
I feel like this new wisdom has made me softer, bigger hearted, lighter and I am eternally grateful! I have such a love and a respect for men; especially for my father for being the first one to gift me with the seed for this story and for you, who I trust by sharing my it will feel empowered to look at where you might be blaming others for what’s happening in your life.
Take your power back and see how your internal world is creating your external world. It’s all been perfectly designed for you; so well done, you’re right on course!
You too are the butterfly, and remember the butterfly can never see the beauty of its own wings!
I love you!