I was just about to message one of my mentors, and ask what to do when I feel totally overcome with love… which happens a lot recently.
The answer that came to me before… and again now, was this… share it.
So here I am – blogging – writing, with no idea where this is going … which is one of my favourite tings…. Making shit up. Good shit though. Sorry, but that’s pretty much the only word that will suffice right now… but it’s GOOD shit… ha ha, well I hope so; I hope it’s good for you. (a little ‘ps.’ here… in a totally inappropriate place… but if you’ve got writer’s block, or you want to tell a story… just start ‘making it up’… it’s another word for channeling… let me know how you get on, and if I’m making no sense at all, pop a comment below or ask me and I’ll explain more about this – but believe me, it’s magic… when you’re making ‘good’ stuff up.).
So, what are you making up? Do you make up good stuff?
When you’re feeling blue, what do you make up?
You see, something I realized recently was that our feelings come first, then the thoughts… often we have a feeling, and rather than just having it – feeling it… we make stuff up about it. We define ourselves, others or the world depending on the feeling. Often those thoughts really don’t serve us and enhance the shit feeling.
Howeverrrr…. I know that very often when I had a really GOOD feeling.. like I was feeling AMAZING my little (?!) ego, mind whatever you want to call it, would still make bad shit up! So, I’d find myself going ‘OMG I’m SO happy’, and then I’d hear my internal voice, or gremlin as I started to call it say something like; “Ah yes, but what about….”… (fill in the blank). My ego/mind would choose an area of my life I could worry about and my great feeling would totally dissipate and be replaced by a feeling of doom, fear, worry etc.
Photo courtesy of Liza Brown; Mahalo you sweet lady!
Right now though, I’m sitting in the evening sun, it’s a summery balmy evening, the sun is about an hour from setting, I can smell the oceanic fresh aroma, and feel the sensual salty sea breeze on my cheek. The birds are flying around my head, choosing where to settle tonight, the kids are playing down below –only a few weeks into the summer, yet about 75 shades browner than a few weeks ago before the summer break.
Life is good.
I am a lucky lady.
Right now, I feel gratitude, love, and a renewed faith in the words:
Please forgive me
I love you.
A la Ho’ponopono from Hawaii (see my facebook note (click here) if you want to find out more about that.
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I loveeee you wonderful being!